Heavenly Hell

Chapter 14: Clueless

"...She is, I'm pretty sure. She is schizophrenic !" I heard a doctor talk to a nurse as I deliberately opened my eyes. "Will we transfer her?" She asked, "Certainly, lets go outside and we'll talk" she said as she walked away.

I slowly got up from the bed, what's schizophrenia ? I got out of my room feeling apprehensive but believe me I was cautious. I walked slowly through the halls and hid whenever I heard someone walking towards me.

I searched for any place with a computer, I headed to their labs. I wanted to ferret out the facts, answer some of these baffling and confounding questions. I got lost couple of times, but I ended up following their directions that were written on the walls, rooms and instruction signs.

I looked for a search engine, and there it was...Google. I typed "schizophrenia" and waited impatiently for the results. I stared at the loading sign as it turned round and round continuously.

All results showed up, "A long-term mental disorder of a type involving a breakdown in the relation between thought, emotion, and behavior, leading to faulty perception, inappropriate actions and feelings, withdrawal from reality and personal relationships into fantasy and delusion, and a sense of mental fragmentation" that's the definition that I looked at first..

"Dreams created by the subconscious mind that causes the patient to live reality in disbelief, and consider that dream reality" that was the second.

I read couple of more definitions and informations, I had different thoughts pop into my head. Do they really think I have this disease?

I had evidence that indicates that xeopra is real, how can I be mentally ill? How can a wound not recover after 4 years in the hospital? How can I have a necklace that was given to me as a gift inside the dream?

I heard snickering outside the door that cut my train of thoughts and conclusions. I hid under the desk, I tried to stay alert and not get distracted by anything. I held my breath as I heard her footsteps, she stayed there for couple of minutes and left right away.

I headed back to my room with caution, hoping not to get caught. Two doctors blocked my way when I reached the hall where my room was located. I spotted Parker at the end of the hall getting out of his room for some reason, he stopped and looked at me.

"Dear, come with me please we're going to go to another hospital to check your health and maybe release you" one doctor said. I spotted a pen carried by the other doctor, "National mental illness hospital" this phrase was written on that pen.

They noticed me staring and checked the thing I was staring at, we looked at each other's eyes for a second before I started running. I passed by Parker and grabbed his hand and made him run with me. We went to the same lab I went to before, I closed the door and didn't turn the lights on.

"What's wrong with you? You're different Olivia." He said, "Parker remember, Lucas the young boy, he gave me this necklace. Plus, your wound would be healed after four years Parker! It looks pretty recent to me" I said with all my energy trying to convince him.

"They're transferring you to a mental illness hospital Olivia, you're kind of going through a stage of schizophrenia. It'll get worse if you don't do something about it!" Parker said with disappointment showing on his face.

"You believe it? You believe I'm mentally ill?...Okay" I said as I pushed him out of the way. I headed to the doctors and Parker followed me, "Olivia wait" he said. He was standing few meters away from me, "lets go" I said looking down.

I walked slowly with them, I lost trust in everyone by that time. I mean Parker was the one I excessively trust, and now he believes I'm mentally ill! I mean am I? Is this really fake? I'm just clueless.