You're My Medicine, When You're Closed To Me. (2Doc)

the night

Oh my God.

Murdoc's hand.

It was him. I could feel his rough knuckles, his tapered fingers and his sharp nails.
Shit.
Shit.
I'm speechless. I immediatly retract my hand and I step away. Holy shit I'm so stupid. Damn. How Can I be such an Idiot.
I don't say anything. I'm already prepared to his reaction.

Anything.
He doesn't say anything.
Its dark so I can't see what he is doing.
But I don't think he's moving because the room is filled with silence.

After five minutes he aspires a big breath before talking.
"I'm sorry 2D. I'm sorry you feel this way".
He slowly hugs me.
"I know you passed blue periods in your life. I know you had to fight against the world and your own demons. And thanks to music you could escape this world.
I'm sure you'll do a great performance at baftas. You just have to believe in yourself. You were amazig before.
We could feel your emotions that came out as if they were notes on the pentagramm."
I was impressed. I couldn't believe he thought this about me.
I stop sobbing and the last tears burn his arm. It's almost midnight. I'm falling asleep in that position. Next to him. I was happy after all. Happy but sad. Before falling asleep I managed to tell him a soft "thank you. You are my best friend".
This is too cheesy and sweet. But in that moment I was allowed to do that.
He patted my cheecks with his knuckles.
Here's the orange of the sea. I hear a hand that is holding mine. I turn my face and I see him.
Tall. Slim. Green. Cunning and bright-eyed. We are alone together. He comes closer to me. He smiles to me and he drowns his hand in my hair.
I feel a burning in my face. Damn a sunlight came through the window and hit my face. I suddely wake up. I'm in my room. The sheets are messed up. I turn my head and he's next to me. I immediatly go back to the other position. I don't want him to see that I'm awake. I'd better be quite, so I pretend to sleep while he goes away.
After everything I was calm. Maybe he would have stopped hurting me.
I check out my bruise and in a certain way I say goodbye to him. Everythimg will change in a while.
As I'm awake I try to remeber the dream I've made. Mhhh I almost forgot it.
I remember orange...
A lot of orange..
And...
His face.
Alone
And together
Alone together.
In an immense orange landscape.
It was... strange. Too strange. Murdoc and I are, friends. I cant think of us as a couple.
Not in that sense.
-Stu!!!how are you?
Noodle hey. I'm fine, I think. Yesterday  it was just an ugly day.
She gives me a strong hug and she tells me
-come on stu! Tomorrow you gotta rock it! Now you should put on this blouse.
Before trying it I go to the bathroom to wash my face, take my painkillers and quickly comb my hair.
I feel ready.
I get dressed with the outfit I'll wear tomorrow. Casual-elegant. My favourite style. The jacket still fits me. That's strange I bought it years ago.
Do you like it?
-a lot! Wow!
-Thank you Noodle.
-I count on you 2D.
Murdoc in that moment arrives and asks me
-is everything okay 2D?
-yes Murdoc. Thanks for asking.
-okay. I'n going to have a shower. Tomorrow you'd better be ready. In particular you Noodle. You gotta lengthen you high hilled shoes and shorten your skirt eheheh

It's not a fashion show, it's a singing performance Murdoc. However what will you put on?
-Surprise dolly. Tomorrow you will see me under the light of a thousand suns! You will need sunglasses to look at me. On point as always.
-Yeah yeah okay.. go to have a shower you stinky. And put some perfume on.
It will be done honey. See ya.

I still wonder what will he put on .