Diary?

Wait.,

I know you'll find someone who loves you the way I did. They will give you the time and effort I would've put in. I'll never forget the feelings I had. I had to go. I promise they will give you all you need. I'll never forget the feelings you gave me, they were real and felt impossible to get over. I lost my sense of sanity and you were toxic. I was running low on emotion and sleep and willpower to continue hiding this. I always think back to that night. The night I sat outside in the cold while you sat in your car. I wish I could've told you in person and looked into your eyes. The same eyes that captivated me from the start. I'm just here writing our story, the story of you and me that never turned into an us or we. They just turned into memories after all. I had hope that this would've turned into an us or we. I know you'll have someone to be by your side the way I never had a chance to be. I always tried to go on with my day but when you come calling I'm always there to pick up. And I couldn't stop it, I can't stop it. Waiting on you will be the death of me. Death leads to losing me. And losing me is just as bad as death and I swear I will not lose myself to you this way.
And I promise this. I won't wait on you anymore...