Finally Seen

Finally Seen-Part 19

Chapter Nineteen

(Mary)

The closer it got to Thanksgiving, the more tense the atmosphere of my house got. My Mom was organizing the hospitol food drive. My dad had a big case to close, and I kept feeling like anyday Jonah would find out my secret. The only person who seemed perfectly fine and relaxed, was Dean. His project with Daisy was almost done and he was super excited for thanksgiving weekend. I wished I could share in the excitement, but I was far to nervous.

Dad was at worl one day, while Mom was running around the house, trying to do house work and organize the food drive by phone. As much as I would have liked to stay and watch her jumo around like a hyperactive dog, I decided it would be much mire enjoyable to be alone upstairs.

Dean wasn't home today. his school was putting on a Thanksgiving show Friday, and he volunteered to help make props with Daisy. Daisy seemed to be good for Dean. Whenever he was with her, or talked about her, he sounded happy. I was glad they were becomibg friends, but also worries. It was only a matter if time before Jonah met him and then put two and two together. I thought about telling Jonah the truth. It would make things easier on me, but i hadn't known him very long. I did trust him, it just wouldn't be fair to spring something this big in him. Who knew how he would react. Probabl not in a good way.

Speaking Jonah, a little bit later, I got a text from him. "Hey." it read.

"Hi." I sent back.

A second later, I got a message asking me if i was able to go to the movies.

"Can't," I sent him. "I have to help my mom with stuff."

I would have loved to go to the movies. If i could, I would go anywhere he asked me, but i couldn't. My situation made it impossible for me to ever have a normal friendship. When Jonah and I started talking, I never had any illusions. I knew that we would never be the best of friends, because I wasn't able to be. I knew eventually, I'd have to leave him, or risk him finding out. Things never use to be this complicated. Why did they always have to change.

"Okay, another time maybe." he sent. Was it bad that he was so understanding.

I couldn't help but feel like this charade would one day come to an end. Very soon prehaps. Maybe it was a bad idea to let myself get use to having a friend. I knew it wouldn't last forever, and then the feeling of lonliness would be ten times worse. I guess I just wanted to pretend for a while. Wanted to pretend it was different.

Really, it was different. Jonah could see me after all. That had to mean something, although I had no idea what. Maybe that was what I should have been focusing on. Maybe it would be the answer to all of this.

I pulled up safari and began conducting research. I didn't know where I was going to start, or where I would end, but at least I had something to do for now. The resesch turned up nothing, but I still had a lot of internet left to search.

That night, I was up until three, surfacing the internet. I felt like every word on the web, I had read. Research was much easier when you actually knew what you were looking for. Hopefully in a few days I would find something useful.

"You look like crap." Jonah said to me the next day after school.

"Shut up." I said and slouched down on the curb. I wasn't in a good mood.

"Somebody is grumpy/" Jonah joined me on the curb. "What's the matter?"

"I didn't sleep." I almost never slept. He probably thought I was an insomniac. Althought I guess I really was.

"Again." he asked. "Have you ever thought about getting sleeping pills?"

"No." How was I going to get sleeping pills?

"My sister had to take them for a while, as long as you don't use them to much they work fine."

"You're not doing a very good job at selling them." I said. "I just need to fine a way to manage my sleep schedule."

"If you say so." he said.

"So why aren't you taking the bus?" I asked. "How do you plan to get home?"

"I'm not going home." he said. "I have to pick up some stuff for Mom's store."

"I see, So where are you going to hide it?"

"Her assistant is helping with that. She's coming to pick me up soon."

"Well I hope everything goes the way you planned."

"Yeah you can come if you want." he said. "Eve basically has everything picked out and paid for, but at least it's something to do."

Going to pick up paint and stuff, was not fun in my book. Hanging out with Jonah was. But right now, I couldn't do either. It was getting harder to find ways to spend time with him where no one would see us. "Sorry." I said. "I have to watch Dean."

"That's fine." he said. He looked dissapointed but he understood. I hated lying him. "I'll talk to you later."

"Okay." I stood up to leave, I shouldn't be here when his ride showed up.

"Wait, how are you getting home?" he asked.

"I only live a few minutes from here." I said. "Walking is good for the soul, remember?"

He laughed. Probably at my expense, "See ya."