I Love him(Anakin Skywalker Love story) Book 1

Chapter 21

Rosie holds her big belly, she laying down on the couch in her room. Anakin had to go to the Jedi council, Rosie is excused for a fake reason. Rosie's 'reason' was that she was going to help Padme with her plans for Senate. Stupid enough to believe. Obi Wan came by earlier, Rosie had to hide her stomach. He was worried about Anakin. I herd that they were going to send Obi Wan on the Grevious mission. Very good choice in her opinion. If they sent Anakin on that mission she was going to go. She didn't care if she will get in trouble by him, she didn't want him to go alone. For some strange reason she was starting to lose trust in the clones and in the emperor. It's been bugging her a lot recently. She feels that there is something not right. Ever since she saw how close Anakin is to Palpatine, things have been really weird lately. The door opens and Rosie sits up straight and Padme and Jillian come in. Rosie sighs and lays back down. "Disappointed?" Jillian asks.

"No just thought you were Anakin. I was getting a bit worried." Rosie said as Jillian sat down next to her and put her hand her Rosie's head.

"I am sure he is fine" Padme said

"But...What if he is to go Utapau? And something went wrong? What if I have to go on alone?" Rosie rambles.

"Shh. You're worrying too much Rose" Jillian said petting my hair.

"He is fine, He wouldn't leave you like this. Especially not now." Padme said

"I guess you"re right" Rosie sighs and relaxes a bit. The door opens and Rosie sits up straight like before. Anakin walks in with his head down. "Ani!" Rosie said cheerfully. "You're back. Who did they decide to go? Obi Wan?"

"Yes. Padme, Jillian do you mind?" Anakin asks politely

"Of course Master" Jillian said leaving with Padme. Rosie tries to stand up.

"no it is OK" Anakin said sitting next to her.

"What is wrong Ani?" Rosie asks him. Anakin looked at her tummy, then her necklace, then at her face. Rosie looks into the blue eyes she adores.

"I don't like lying to everyone. I just want them to know" He sighs. Rosie puts a hand on his cheek

"Ani...we've talked about this" Rosie whispers.

"I know" He replies

A couple minutes later, sleep overcomes Rosie. She rests on Anakin politely, but comfortable. Rosie's dreams are so calm, and so happy. Rosie feels her head drop. She opens her eyes and sees Anakin standing up. Rosie sits up. "Ani are you OK?" She asked

"Was Obi Wan here?" Anakin asked, plainly. Rosie stands up with a bit of trouble.

"Yeah this morning" Rosie smiled.

"Why was he here?" he asks, slowly turning towards Rosie.

"He was really worried about you. He said that you were under a lot of stress" Rosie sighs. She walked over to get a drink since her throat felt dry. She came back with a glass of water in her hand.

"I feel lost" Anakin says. Rosie takes a sip and looks at him.

"What do you mean by lost?" Rosie asked. Anakin looks at her and slowly walks toward her.

"Obi Wan and the council don't trust me" Anakin sighs.

"Ani, I would know, they trust you with their lives." Rosie says

"Something is happening." Anakin says. He reaches Rosie. "I am not the Jedi I should be." This shocks Rosie. "I want more. And I know I shouldn't." He fades off. Rosie makes him look at her.

"You expect too much of yourself" Rosie sighs. Anakin puts his hands on her hips.

"I found a way to save you" Anakin looks Rosie dead in the eyes. She is a bit confused.

"S-Save me?" Rosie stammers

"From my nightmares." he plays with Rosie's loose hair.

"That's whats bothering you?" Rosie asks, she keeps her focus on him.

"I'm not going to lose you Rose" Anakin sighs

"Like I said, I am not dying anytime soon. You can count on it" Rosie smiles. "I promise"

"No. I promise you." Anakin strokes his cheek with his index finger. Rosie bites her lip. She didn't know how to respond to that,

"Just don't lose yourself" Rosie breathes. "Ani...I am still a bit tired. I need to sleep." he nods and brings her over to the couch. Anakin sits down and Rosie lays her head down on his chest. Rosie closes her eyes and falls asleep. She didn't care if it was in the afternoon, she was tired.

And now that I am with you again...I'm in agony. The closer I get to you, the worst it gets. The thought with not being with you...I can't breathe. My heart is beating...hoping that kiss will not become a scar. You are in my very soul tormenting me...what can I do? I will do anything you ask...I am tormented by that kiss that shouldn't have happened. If you are suffering as much as I am, please say so. ~Anakin Skywalker