Otayuri - Loss

6.

Pov Otabek

I got home and my sister was still up.
"Otabek! " she hugged me tight.
"Where were you?
"I was at the hospital." I could've just said I was at yurio's but i said it already so now I had to explain.
"What? Why? Are you sick?" She looked scared.
"No not at all. Yurio just needed a check up."
"is he okay?"
"Yes" I got tears in my eyes while saying it. Because he wasn't. 
"So why did it take so long."

I stood up, not wanting to continue this conversation since I didn't want to cry in front of my little sister. I walked to my bedroom and closed the door. I laid down on my bed when my phone started vibrating like crazy. I saw I had 27 texts from mila.  I explained her what happened and then went to bed.

Pov Yurio

I woke up by the nurses at 7.00 AM. 
"Jesus,  if I can't go to school you can at least let me sleep in."
She laughed and placed food in front of me. I ate slowly. It sucked since someone had to watch me every time I ate. And a bit after that, to make sure I'd keep it in. I sighed. It wasn't even that bad. I just went a little crazy but I knew it now and I was fine. No need to exaggerate it like this.
I ate the whole plate but felt a little sick after.  But I knew that if I just showed them I was still able to eat so I could go home. My therapist Brian was okay, but he annoyed me sometimes. He acted like I had some kind of mental illness. And I hated it.

"Well that's all for today" he said.
"I can see that you are getting better. And you look better too"
"Thanks" I looked down." I've been here for 3 days now. Mila stopped by once, and my parents were here a lot of course.  And otabek came everyday as well.
"So can I go home now?"
He laughed. Fucking idiot.
"No not yet. But if you keep being like this you can go home Saturday morning. Since it was Thursday afternoon I was okay with that. I said goodbye to him and then turned around as my parents came in. "How are you feeling tiger?" My father said. "I'm okay."
"So how long have you been doing this to yourself?" My dad asked.
I looked up. It was horrible to see how much I hurt them.
"A..  While..."
"Yurio..." my father said.
"But I'm not doing it anymore so you don't need to worry. " I said quickly.
"Well we're worried because you didn't tell us anything about anything that was going on. If something like this happens again, how will we know it won't be the same?"
I shrugged. 
Someone knocked on the door. It was otabek. 
"Hey Beka!" I said. My parent sat there in silence.
"Hey yurio. How are you today?"
"I'm cool."
"Do the doctors say the same?"
"Yep."
"Good"
My parents stood up and my father looked at me. "We'll talk about this later yurio." I nodded and they walked away.
"I'm going home saturday"
"That's great yurio! Please promise me you'll take care of yourself from now on."
"Mhmm" I said.
I was gonna do it. I swear.  But like, I felt guilty that everyone was this worried about me.  Like yes I skipped meals. I vomited after meals. But only for about a month or two. Not even everyday. Even the doctors said I wasn't in such a bad condition. I needed to be skinny so it was hard to do this. But if I didn't, it would only hurt people. So I just had to deal with not liking myself.

It was Saturday. I was going home today. I had a bit more skin but I had to stay home all weekend to make sure I eat. And mila and otabek would watch over me at school. It annoyed me but I didn't have a choice so whatever. I ate normal.
That Monday I went to school. Mila saw me and ran over to me. While the others looked confused. They Just thought I had the flu or something. I walked to otabek and he looked happy. "I would hug you if I was allowed to" he said. And then he walked away.
I had to stop feeling so guilty all the time. 
I walked to class where I got 919273 questions from mila. 
"I thought you had to stay in the hospital for weeks or months? Not a few days."
"It wasn't that bad.  I'm not even that thin. And I've been eating better since like, 3 weeks or something. They just wanted to get me to a more regular eating system and checking me up and observing and talking to a therapist and that shit. "
"You're thinner than I am yurio."
I was mad. I wanted to say that maybe she was just fat. But I didn't.  I know how horrible it is to be called fat.
When second period was over I sat down at a table with mila. Otabek joined us as I grabbed a bag out of my backpack.
"My parents made me lunch" I explained. "Since the cafeteria food can be disgusting sometimes."
They nodded.
"So" otabek broke the silence.
"this other guy in my class came out as gay and he looked vulnerable so I just said. 'Cool me too. But I have a boyfriend so don't hit on my he's a tiger and will rip your head off' then the whole class laughed and we did math"
Mila started laughing. "OH MY GOD OTABEK"
I laughed as well.
"Don't worry yurio I didn't tell them what my boyfriend his name was."