voices. [completed]

26 // bleh bleh bleh.

**all names are fake**

i rlly rlly rlly need more sleep

anyway, summary of the past few days

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January 11-
im still in L-O-V-E with Lacy

18/1
FUCKING CHRIST
Chaz went home early and i spent a LOT of time w/ Lacy today
im falling so hard
and im also falling for Justin so hard
i try to tell myself theres no way in hell hed like me
and what does it mean that i like other people while w/ Chaz?

19/1
so Justin and i are kinda awkward
we always 'hit' each other
hes the only guy that im willing to chase
and im willing to let him now im chasing him
a-and hes free rn
i think it might be time for Chalex to be kinda over
plus, this way, i can also kinda tell Chaz "screw you" bc he thinks i 'prefer chicks over dicks'
well i mean thats not entirely false

20/1
im so over Chalex
bye bye
im sorry, but im kinda rlly attracted to Justin who happens to have a crush on someone and im jealous bc i like him and he may not know that but i like him

22/1
fuck my life
Chaz.... was gonna fucking break up w/ me for Casi
and i didnt want to have a heart
i only have it bc it broke
he broke me
im broken
what does she have that i dont?

23/1
we got new seats in Math
i sit near Lacy
im reviewing her essay in ELA
why, life, why?
why you gotta fuck w/ me like that?
and why you gotta make me fall for Justin even more?

26/1
so i rlly love Justin's version of 'Hey There Delilah' by the Plain White T's
fuck this
despite Spanish, im still falling for Justin
and im also falling for Lacy
only difference-- i may have a shot w/ Justin
i dont have a shot w/ Lacy only bc i blew it
she said that glasses would make her look bad
hon, nothing makes you look bad
i even said that
she ignored it
whatever
still, i learned new things abt Justin today

27/1
HE ACTUALLY LEFT HIS FRIENDS TO FUCKING TALK TO ME
I THINK SOMETHING NEW IS GOING ON
BC HE NEVER DID THAT BEFORE
WTF IS GOING ON?
AND HELL TO THE FUCKING YEAH IM TALKING ABT JUSTIN
dude help me
Chaz keeps being incredibly jackassy during SS but super sweet during Spanish
wtf is up w/ that?
anyway.... were all in deep shit in Theatre
and im in deep shit at home
but is it bad that i was super happy to switch lunches this week?
bc of Justin?
i mean...., damn
i rlly like him
calm down, Alex
we get it

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im pretty boring
im also writing a few new stories
should i possibly upload them?