city lights ❁ Jacob sartorius

12

"Uh, yeah, d-double date." I stammered, absolutely hating this.

"Sounds great." Brandon smiled, taking my hand. "Well, we have to go, Lily. We don't wanna miss the previews."

"Yeah, we could come with." Jacob said, with his hand in Sierra's but put his free one on my shoulder. I immediately flinched away, and frowned as his face fell.

We made our way to the screening room, with Jacob, Brandon, and Sierra, chatting with each other and me in silence.

I was grateful when we reached the screening room, as it was dark and we weren't allowed to talk.

I wasn't as grateful, though, when we sat down, as Brandon sat on my left and Jacob sat on my right. I frowned all the way through the previews.

Right when the movie started, Jacob whispered something to me that I couldn't hear, causing a woman in front of us to turn and scold us.

"Listen, I know you lovebirds are having a good time, but some of us need to watch the movie!" She hissed, then turned around. I reddened, but was thankful it was dark.

Did we look like a couple?

"What was that about?" Brandon whispered to me, taking my hand.

"Nothing, let's just watch it." I answered, squeezing his hand.

I couldn't care less about the movie.

I mean, I jumped at the scary parts, laughed at the funny parts, and squeezed Brandon's hand at the kissing parts, but it didn't catch my attention. I watched as Jacob and Sierra both hugged at the scary parts, laughed together at the funny parts, and kissed during the romantic parts. 

I watched in pure, pure jealousy.

I wasn't one to admit something like that right away, but I guess I did.

I watched as Jacob kissed her forehead, as Sierra was engulfed in in his arms. 

No, I couldn't think this.

No matter how jealous, how regretful I was, I was on a date with Brandon, and it was inappropriate to be jealous of another girl when she was on a date with another guy.

So, instead, I cuddled myself into Brandon's arms, as he kissed my forehead and played with my hair.

But instead, I cried. I didn't relish the fact that I was finally in a relationship, in someone's arms. My tears made stains on his sweatshirt, and he flinched a little before pretending he didn't notice. Every time  I hugged Brandon, my mind flew to Jacob.

I couldn't do this.

Tears stinging my eyes, I got up in the middle, running out with hands covering my eyes. I ran out and slammed the door, right when the main character in the movie was shot. The main character died. She was dead.

And that's how I felt.

Dead.

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speechless. 😶