My Spiritual Journey

Struggles with anxiety

Hello, it's been a while since I've talk to you guys.

For a long time I've always felt like a lot of things are my fault.

I realized that I need therapy.

I am receiving therapy.

I am scared. I am very afraid. I am actually recording what I am saying right now. Because I have a lot of things anxiety. I am trying hard to be functional to write something but I can't be right now. I never think... I always wanted to do the right thing. But now I don't even know what I'm doing. I don't think I can ever be good enough and the thoughts are really damaging. The last thing I put down it was a reminder it was more of a reminder for myself.

I don't want to always think this way I want to find a way to be positive to see that I am enough. I feel like things are working for a while and now they're not.

I am really shaking right now. I just wish there was a better way to talk about things. This will not be edited for a while. I left Wicca for a while. I moved to a different place. I don't know what I believe anymore I don't know who to trust I just feel like this whole world is so hesitant to just relax.

There's so much that has happened in my life And I'm wondering if this is all it's going to be?

All this energy if I couldn't really control it could be used for the better. That's my goal.

I'm trying to tell everyone that I'm fine. but I'm not. There's all these thoughts that come in my head and people say that I overthink things and I don't want to overthink but that's what I do I just wish I was a better friend...