Colorless Beauty

17: I Don't Want More

"(Y/N). What if that person is standing right in front of me?"

I couldn't look away at this point. Even if I didn't like the sad expression on his face, my eyes wouldn't move elsewhere.

"Jimin..." His name was the only thing that would allow itself to come out of my mouth. Everyone around me seemed to be invisible as me and Jimin were lost in each others' eyes.

"(Y/N)." I felt something trigger inside me when he called my name. (TRIGGERED lol)

"I-"

"Jiminidon'tknowaboutmyfeelingsyet!" I said super fast, not even realizing how fast I actually said it, but it was still understandable.

'Feelings.' I thought to myself. Memories began rushing into my head. I remembered the feelings I felt when I was with Jungkook as I looked over to my left at the smirking boy.

'No. I can't like him.' That's when I remembered how bad of a person he actually is.

'He ruined me.'

I was still hanging around in my thoughts, not even realizing that I was being pulled somewhere behind the school. Sooner or later, I was standing against the wall, while Jimin stood about a foot away from me.

"Do you like Jungkook?" That was the first question I was asked. My eyes immediately widened as my head shot up at Jimin.

"Huh?"

"DO YOU LIKE HIM?!" I felt tears forming in my eyes. I have never seen Jimin this way. He must have been very upset.

"N-no." I looked down, trying to tell the truth. I hadn't even realized that I had already fallen in a hole filled with Jungkook.

The next thing I heard was a sigh coming from Jimin.

"(Y/N). You're lying. Look me in the eyes and tell me you don't like that jerk."

There was a moment of silence as I kept my head low. I closed my eyes tight, wishing I could just die on the spot.

"I knew it." Jimin managed to let out.

I then thought of something. Something that could work.

"(Y/N). You can't like him."

"Then let's date." I lifted my head to meet his shocked eyes.

"W-what?" He asked, trying to understand if what I just said was true.

"Make me fall for you instead."

. . . . .

Two weeks later . . . . .

"Let go!" I screamed, trying to break free from his grasp.

It's been 2 weeks, and not much has changed. Me and Jimin began dating, and I honestly have never been this happy in a long time. Since Jimin is the only person who could make me happy at a time like this, I decided that it's not so bad being with him all the time.

I also noticed that Jimin has been trying to avoid Yoongi lately. I wasn't too sure what was going on with them, but I didn't want to be a part of it.

Also, everyone finally decided that bullying me was boring, so they all gradually stopped doing so, except for Jungkook.

As for me and Jungkook, he looked a bit shaken when he found out about me and Jimin, but it was only for a second. He still always seems to find a way to mess with me, but today is different.

I was a bit late to my 4th class, and as soon as I walked into the room, I was pulled by my hand, making me drop all of my supplies. I began to hear Jimin shouting my name, as I was getting dragged away.

His grasp was too strong, and it was beginning to hurt my wrist.

"(Y/N)!" Jimin was now in the hallway, running towards us. Of course, Jungkook didn't give up there. He began picking up his pace, until he managed to get the two of us into a janitors' closet without Jimin seeing.

I was immediately pinned against a wall with a hand covering my mouth, as a broom fell onto the floor into a pile of I don't even know what.

We could hear Jimin's shouts until they slowly faded, indicating that he was gone. It was completely dark inside the small room. There didn't seem to be much room either.

'Wait. Why is he still holding onto my mouth? Anyways, I need to get out of here.'

Slowly, Jungkook slid his fingers onto my lips and down onto my chin. I already knew what was about to happen, but why didn't I even try to stop him?

I let him place his hands at the back of my neck as my eyes closed.

"You don't know how long I have been craving your lips."

Before I even had the chance to think about what he had just said, he crashed his lips into mine, almost immediately sticking his tongue in.

I had never felt this kind of feeling before. My hands began clenching onto the sides of his jacket as he slid the two of us onto the floor. My back was against the wall still, as he was now sitting over my legs, and I began to kiss back.

I knew I had to stop before anything more happens, but I liked the way this felt. My heart was beating like crazy, and I felt myself falling for him even more.

'I have to stop. I have to leave this room.' I always had to tell myself this.

I was too weak, but I managed to remove my lips from his by moving my head to the side.

"Stop. Let me go." I was breathing heavily, and it was hard to talk.

"But you like it. I know you like it." I was a bit surprised as his voice had changed into a very husky voice. There was a long moment of silence as I tried to think of what to do.

An idea then clicked into my head.

I held my arms up a bit, waiting to attack. I was nervous, and shaking a bit as my heartbeat could be heard.

'3........2........1!'

I pushed my hands hard against him as he fell over.

'Now's my chance.'

I then ran to the door, which I couldn't even see. I could only see the light coming from under it and around the sides of it.

I quickly ran out of the stuffy room, and leaned over with my hands on my knees. I was breathing very heavily, but my heartbeat was slowing down to it's normal rate. I began feeling a sense of emptiness as I thought about what just happened.

'I shouldn't be like this.'

I then lifted myself back up as a long sigh escaped my mouth. I began moving my eyes around the halls, trying to figure out where Jimin could have ended up. I obviously chose the way that he disappeared in.

I walked straight through the long hallway, trying to listen for the sound of someone else's footsteps. When I made it to the corner, I had to turn in of course.

I immediately froze as soon as I saw Jimin. My eyes widened at what they were focusing on. Jimin wasn't alone, but in fact, he was with Yoongi. They were standing next to a water fountain diagonal from me, on the other side of the hallway.

Jimin was up against the wall. His head was tilting up, and his eyes were closed while his mouth hung open. I could hear quiet moans coming from his mouth as Yoongi sucked on his neck.

I never thought something like this would happen. I was too shocked to even look away. My mind was blank, and I felt frozen.

"J-Jimin...."