Colorless Beauty

9: Goodbye

        For a second, his eyes widened. You and him were both shocked with the words that came out of your mouth, but his eyes went back to normal after a few seconds, and he put on an awkward smile.

        "O-Of course! Every s-student likes me....."

        My face became a bit saddened.

        'I may as well let it all out now while I have the chance.'

        "I'm serious."

        He immediately lost the fake smile on his face. He looked at me with a sad expression as well. I already knew what was about to come to me, but I decided not to let out tears in front of the person I care about so much.

        "I'm sorry......I can't.......we can't......" He was trying his best to explain it to me. I just put on the best fake-smile I could.

        "I know! It's okay though......it was only a little crush......"

        He looked down at at his feet as he gulped a bit.

        "You can go home now."

        I felt as if my heart had just been stabbed with the sharpest needle you could ever imagine. I felt the tears coming, so I immediately stood up, trying to hide myself with a smile.

        "Yes sir!"

        With that, I ran out, finally letting everything out. I didn't know where I was going, but I just wanted to get somewhere far away. It was the first time I had ever fallen for someone. It was also the first time my heart broke over a man. It was the first time I experienced this feeling.

        I wasn't sure why, but I ended up on the school rooftop, and I never stopped running until I hit some railings. My tears wouldn't stop falling from my face. I looked like a complete mess, and I wanted to go home to mom.

        'Oh yeah........mom isn't here anymore.'

        I crouched down, holding onto the bottom of the railings. I was in so much pain. I could have just been over-reacting because it was THAT time of the month for me, but either way, I would still feel the same way.

        I just sat there, and cried all of the sorrow out of me. But of course, when I finally thought I was feeling a bit better, I noticed him leaving the school right below me. I just watched him as his feet led him away.

        My heart began beating at an uncontrollable speed when he suddenly turned around. How on earth did he notice me so quickly? He was looking me straight in the eyes, and it just made me hurt some more.

        He then looked back in front of him, and continued his walking until he turned the corner at the entrance of the school property. He was out my sight. My face became a bit more normal as I thought.

        'What was I even thinking? Why did I fall for my own teacher? I wonder how things will be now......'

        I was knocked out of my thoughts when I heard some noises below me. I watched as, yet another person was leaving the school. I squinted my eyes the try and see who the girl was. She was running, but not too fast, and suddenly stopped to look back. She was beautiful.

        'Oh, it's Sumi.'

        I got kind of shocked when I saw Jungkook catch up to her, and grab her hand. They began talking for a bit, and eventually walked off, their fingers still intertwined.

        'Too bad I couldn't hear anything.'

        I sat on the floor of the rooftop for about 10 more minutes, just watching as the sun slowly begin to go down. Looking at the view seemed to make me feel a bit more at ease. It was about 6:00 when I finally headed home.

     . . . . .

        The next day, everyone was looking at me in a disgusted way, which I wasn't surprised, but it made me nervous. I usually didn't like this kind of attention.

        They were all whispering into each other's ears like little kids, and I thought.

        'So is this going to happen every time I come to school?'

        "Omg. I heard she was trying to seduce Mr. Kim."

        I immediately froze when I heard those words.

        "Ew! Really?! I heard that her and Mr. Kim have been doing naughty things in the detention room after school."

        I felt my heart sink into my stomach. My teary eyes were only looking at the floor. I wanted to curl up into a ball and just die.

        "Ha! Isn't he getting fired?"

        I widened my eyes in shock.

        'Fired? I need to do something....but.....I can't move. I'm scared.'

        I grabbed my head in frustration. I crouched down with my hands still grasping my flaming head.

        'I have to save him. I need to save him.'

        I finally looked up slowly at all of the feet crowding the hallways. I looked up even more until I saw Sumi. She was giving me the same smirk Jungkook did.

        I finally decided to just ignore them all. I just ran for it. I ran and ran until I reached the place I needed to get to. The classroom.

        I searched all around for that person, but he wasn't there. All I could do now was search. I needed to find him. I needed to talk with him. I looked like a maniac as I searched every room. Every floor. I searched everywhere. The only place I hadn't looked yet was the roof.

        I slammed that door open, and felt a gush of relief when I saw him. He was on one of the benches, and his back was facing me, but his head was turned towards my direction because of the loud sound the door made when I opened it. He quickly turned his head back around when he saw it was me.

        My tears began drying on my cheeks as I slowly began walking towards him.

        "Don't come any closer, (Y/N). I don't want you to look at me right now."

        I just froze, but my heart was still throbbing in pain.

        "I'm so sorry." My voice was a bit shaky because I was trying not to cry.

        A sigh came from his mouth before he started talking again.

        "It isn't your fault. It's not like you spread the rumors." He stopped for a second, but then he continued.

        "(Y/N).....I did feel something when I first met you."

        Hot tears streamed down my cheeks as those words left his mouth.

        "But I just can't."

        He finally stood up, and turned around. His face was very dull, and his eyes were red, as if he had been crying. He walked closer to me, every step making my heart beat faster. He finally stopped right in front of me, and put his hands on my shoulders

        "Don't worry. I didn't get fired."

        I felt a bit more of relief as he pat my head.

        "But......I did quit."

        Oh great. I tried holding in my tears, but I realized that there was no point in doing so. Both of my cheeks were wet with tears, and Seokjin wiped them, trying to comfort me.

        "Goodbye, (Y/N)."

        He walked behind me, and exited the scene, leaving a sorrowful girl standing there. I didn't even know at the time, that it would be the last time I ever saw him.