Extra Credit

Waiting For Hannah

David POV

"Lanea, hey. Have you talked to her?" I asked when I saw Hannah's Aunt Lanea at the grocery store.

"No. You haven't? She's not talking to anyone. She just needed to get away and be alone I think. I'm surprised she hasn't talked to you." She said looking at me with confusion.

I looked away and avoided eye contact. "Yeah about that, we broke up about 3 months into her pregnancy. She didn't want anyone to know that we ended things so we still tried to be cordial. She left a letter for Raven and I the day she left but I just want her to talk to me. I'm going to head out though. I have to go work in a few." I said walking off and going to my car.

I went to work and then headed over to Hannah's house. I know Raven wouldn't be there so I'd have some time to finish getting my stuff out of her basement without bothering anyone. When I got to Hannah's house, I went upstairs to her room. I was surprised to see all her makeup still sitting on her vanity. She took an all natural trip. She didn't take that many clothes either. I walked over to her bed and sat down picking up the picture of us at my parents beach house from a few years ago. When I looked over at her dresser, I noticed a key by the picture of Carter's ultrasound album. I assumed it was probably the key to his room. When she got his room decorated, it was supposed to be a surprise until the day he came home from the hospital. After we came home, that's where she spent most of her time but I could never go in there. It was too much to handle at the time. I grabbed the key and made my way to his room. As the door opened, the sun began to shine through the window and light up the room. Hannah did an amazing job in this room. It was a white, teal, and grey color scheme all around the room. I walked up to his crib which had a book laying in it. I picked it up and it had letters in it from every month of Hannah's pregnancy. She wrote him a letter for every month mark of her pregnancy. The last letter caught my attention the most. It was a letter for Carter after he passed away.

Dear Carter,
It's mommy again. Unfortunately you didn't come home with me. This is my final letter to you and also my final goodbye. I'm so sorry baby. I think if I would've stressed less, you would've had a better chance of making it. I wish I could've just spent one day with you. You were my best friend Carter. Your daddy wanted you here with us too. Don't you ever think for one second that he didn't, he was just nervous about his life change so quick. I wish he was with me here to write this final letter but he can't come in here just yet without breaking down so I speak for the both of us when I say, we could not wait to meet you and bring you home and watch you grow into the amazing man we knew you'd become. We couldn't wait to give you the world. We love you so much and look forward to the day we meet you again up in heaven. I just wish my final memory of you wasn't so heart wrenching. I love you Carter. Mommy will smile again soon.
-Love Always, Mommy and Daddy

I took the book downstairs to the office and made a copy of every page and laminated them and then took them upstairs and hung them on the wall around his room. But before I left her house, I wrote her a letter.

Dear Hannah,
I saw Carter's room today. You did amazing. He would've been the luckiest child in the world to have such a great mommy. Han, I am so sorry that you lost your best friend. I stressed you out the most with all that stupid "I'm not ready bull crap" I did the one thing that I was afraid to do and that was fail you and our son. I failed you both because I was too much of a coward to be a man for the both of you. I really wish I could just turn back the hands of time and be there for you. I love you Hannah and I will never stop. I hope you can forgive me.
-Love David

I laminated the letter and put it in her laptop. I'm sure when she comes home she'll go straight to her work again. I put the key back and then left.