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The funeral.

I was standing next to dad, holding an umbrella as it was drizzling, watching Beatrice get burried. I was surprised I could hold back my tears, maybe because didn't only lose Beatrice, but I lost my soul too.

Everyone was giving condolences to us. Almost everyone had left except for two ladies. One of the two was Ruby, my mother. She was all alone, crying. I was surprised she came because I thought she completely forgotten about us. She noticed I was looking at her and suddenly smiled.

I didn't smile back.

She went closer to me and said, "I'm sorry for your lost, Aria"

I didn't respond. I didn't even looked at her.

She sighed, "Look Aria," She began but I stopped her five seconds after.

"No, Ruby, you don't need to say sorry for my 'lost' if you didn't care. As a mother, this is your lost too, but you're not a mother to me anymore. You were never there for us. For Beatrice. For me. You left us," I spat. I looked to see her face and left to go in dad's car.

A part of me felt guilty and regretted for saying those words to her, she doesn't deserve that. She was my mother, the one who raised me, for 14 years and all of the sudden, she left. And the thought of she leaving us made my guilt fade away.

Dad wasn't in the car yet. He was talking to a lady I saw the other day in the hospital. They were laughing together. How could my dad smile or laugh and be happy? He lost his fucking daughter.

I stared them two until the lady caught me staring. They stopped talking and dad looked at me too. The lady smiled and waved at me.

I didn't smile or wave back. I could see she mouthed 'It's okay' to me and I rolled my eyes.

I hate it when people are saying shit like 'it's okay' 'you'll be fine' 'everything's going to get better' because it's a lie. Stop saying bullshit to me to make me fall for it and actually believe it's going to be okay when everything starts getting worst. I get you're trying to get me feel better but no, you made me feel worst.

Dad finally got in the car, smiling. "Sorry," He apologized, "That was my friend at work, we actually get along so much together"

I didn't say anything most probably because I didn't care.

We arrived at home. Dad went to go somewhere for his 'business', well atleast that was what he told me. I was alone in my room, tired, but can't sleep.

I miss Beatrice.

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A/N:

So that's chapter 7!! I might be posting chapter 9 & 10 today so keep your ears open for the notification haha ;) Thank you for reading!!

-R