Madhouse

#22 Harley Quinn/ So far away

Four weeks.

Four agonizin' weeks have passed since I left Mistah J to stay with Ivy. Four pitiful weeks I've spent hidin' from Mason's mum, It's all my fault and I know it. Four weeks filled with nothin' but sadness and loneliness.

He's so far away...

Ivy had tired, she tried so hard to make me feel like ma old perky self again. There was no use. Somethin' was wrong with me, somethin', even her words and kind gestures couldn't fix.

My frustrated hands ran through my hair as I lay in bed wide awake. It was early mornin' and I haven't gotten any sleep that night. It was as if somethin' was keepin' me awake or someone?

It felt like I had the flu. My whole body was burnin' and then all of a sudden a jolt of pain in my lower abdomen made my body double over, the sheets fallin' onto the floor. Cursin' under my breath I rapidly waddled to the bathroom as a bitter acidic taste began to rise in the back of my throat. I gagged. I Lifted the lid of the toilet open and crouched down starin' at the blue liquid that soon became yellowy green. Over and over. Over and over, until I had nothin' left to gag out. Nauseous, I felt nauseous. It wasn't good, somethin' wasn't right. Sure I'd felt sick before but it was nothin' like this, not quite.

"Harley!" I heard Ivy call.

My eyes widened as I tried to cover up my mouth with my dirty hands.

He's so far away...

"Where are you daffodil?" Her voice was becomin' louder and louder as she came closer and closer to the bathroom. The door was unlocked so there was no way I was goin' to be able to hide my mornin' sickness from her this time. Yes, it had happened a couple of times before but I thought nothin' of it.

"I'm in the bathroom, I'm fi-BLEHHH!" I vomited as I clutched my throat and stomach protectively feelin' my throat burn.

The door had swung open and there was Red starin' at me in her green nightgown. "Harls what's going on?" She exclaimed as she saw my tragic state.

Chucklin' I stood up and flushed the toilet wipin' away the pieces of vomit that were left on my lips with my backhand. "Just the flu." I smiled and washed my face in the sink my body still shakin' slightly.

"Harley." She said sternly.

"I know mornin' to ya too Red!" I said in a singsongy voice brushin' my hair into two ponytails.

"Harley, how long have you been like this?"

"Oh what the mornin' sickness-"

"Wait you get it in the morning?"

"Um ye but sometimes durin' the day when you're away. Ya know didn't wanna annoy ya with my illness so din't say anythin'." I blabbered on feelin' another jolt in my stomach, "Ow." I hissed

"Harley I don't think it's-"

"Ya think too much Red!" I grinned feelin' better already while wanting tons of food. Carefully, I walked back to the bed but stopped in my tracks as I eyed myself in the huge mirror.

My hands instinctively wondered to my stomach restin' on it carefully. My breasts did look fuller and now that I thought about it they did hurt...

"Harley I think you're p-"

"Shhh Red d'here that?" I placed my long finger on her lips and tiled my head as her eyes widened. She shook her head.

I laughed "I don't either!"

She had took my hand in hers and sat me down slowly on the bed. Displayin' my white teeth I crossed my legs as my eyes widened.

"Harls you have to listen to me." Her voice sounded stern all over again.

"D-Don't hit me..." I shivered under her cold gaze.

She rolled her eyes "I'm not him." Her hands had wrapped around my shiverin' body, "How long do you know me for?"

"Forever." I smiled my head restin' on her shoulder.

I want him next to me...

"Exactly. So don't say anything stupid like that ever again?"

I giggled "Yes Pammie."

"Now now Harley I still need to talk to you." She stared deep into my eyes as I was about to leave to the kitchen.

Noddin' I straightened out my posture and clenched my fists.

he's so far away...

"Harley you're pregnant."

My eyes widened and as I began to laugh I nearly fell off the bed. "Me, pengers? C'mon Red..." I stopped in my tracks.

I was pregnant.

With his child, wasn't I?

My breathin' hitched and tears began to trickle down my cheeks. "W-What if h-he w-won't want it?" I sobbed as she shook her head in disapproval.

"Shh sweetie we still don't know if you are pregnant for sure." She soothed, "Stay here and I'll be back in a few." She tenderly kissed my forehead and left me all alone in her apartment.

Great news Harley!

I smiled, my tear stained face brighter now.

He'll kill it! He'll kill it! He'll kill it!

"The kid is his, he won't!" I spat clechin' the sheets underneath me.

Who are you kiddin' Harleen it's The Joker we're talkin' about here. The murderous psychopathic clown that abused you for many agonizin' years. You tell us he won't hurt it! C'mon we dare you!

"He won't he's changed!" I tried to convince myself.

Right keep belivin', where did that get you this time? He'll never change.

"You're wrong! You're very wrong! My Puddin' does love me he does! And he'll love our little creation."

Listen to yourself Harleen, you sound so pitiful!

Don't listen to her Harley. Think on the brighter side he's yer puddin', the man you love.

"The man I love..." I mumbled in doubt as the door re-opened.

"Catch." Ivy said with a straight face.

I had caught the pregnancy test and walked to the bathroom nervous as ever. After a little time had passed and I had walked out tears in my eyes once again.

"What's wrong Harley baby, are you-" She had shut her mouth when I had showed her the two lines.

I need him here with me...

"I have to find him! I have to tell him!" The smile on my face dropped when I realized that she wasn't smilin', "Pammie?"

"You're so stupid Harley."

"W-What do ya mean?" My brows furrowed.

"Don't you understand? He doesn't want it nor you, please let me parent the child. I'll be great I promise, just not him!" She raced over to me and placed her hands on my shoulders.

"Ivy, Pammie, Red. I've made my decision. I'm sorry." I gasped, seein' the sorrow in her eyes broke my heart.

"I just don't want the same fate for both of you." She huffed.

Slightly the corners of my lips rose up into a subtle smile takin' a deep breath soundin' completely confident. "It will be nothin' like that you have to trust me." 

If only I'd felt as confident as I had sounded...