Letters To You

2 ~ JayJay

Dear JayJay,

JayJay isn't your real name but I couldn't think of a better one to substitute. Anyway, you go to church with me and sometimes I question if you really wanna be there. I think of you as my friend but at school you don't talk to me a lot so I question our friendship as well.

During Wednesday nights (youth) you're loud and sometimes rude. I Remember once that you where like "What is this thing?" in a disgusted tone when we were having the present exchange. It was a sled made of clay and painted- handmade. And you dissed it. You text during Billy's sermons (not really youth pastor's name...I lack creativity names). You download the bible app every time you come to church- so that means you delete it.

At school you seem sad and distant. You used to be really outgoing but lately you've been. I question the things you say like those dirty jokes you tell...

In this entry I didn't come to condemn you, JayJay; not in the slightest. But I did come here to blab about what I think of you...and something that happened awhile ago.

I had a dream and the only thing that I remember is that you wanted to commit suicide and you left a note. The details are all fuzzy but that is the thing that stuck out to me the most. I want to talk to you about it, but like I said- we're not that good of friends. I don't know wether to ask you if you are all right because, like I said, you've been kinda melancholy lately.

As I said before, I didn't come here to condemn you. God is the judge and I cannot take his place and do his task. I am just worried about you and don't want you to stray from God. I do care about you in some ways, JayJay, but I just don't know how to express it. I hope you find the right path, and I will try to talk to you later. Try to have a wonderful life, JayJay.

~ reader_237