Pretending to be Bukowski: A Poem Collection

Dear Blue-Eyed Dreamer

Author's note: This is dedicated and written to my younger self. Hope you enjoy.

Dear Blue-Eyed dreamer,
You have fought for love your whole life
You have searched for a place to call home,
People to make you smile.

All you've ever wanted was simple
Love
Stability
Trust
Loyalty
You've never asked for much

You've spent all of your young days caring for others
Hoping that putting yourself on the line would get you what you want
You thought that unconditional love would be reciprocated
But people took advantage of you.

After awhile, you began to think you were trapped
That happiness and love and friendship weren't meant for someone like you,
That you would always be the savior to anyone but yourself,
And you couldn't bring yourself to love who you were.

But Blue-Eyed Dreamer, I'm here to say that your story is just beginning.
You deserve every ounce of love and compassion
You deserve the same support you so desperately give
And all of it is on the horizon

Someday soon, you will find a home, and you will find true love.
No Prince Charming, but a family of peers that understand you.
You'll get to choose the right family for you
And nearly every day will end with happiness

All the sorrow, the betrayal, the uncertainty you feel,
All will cease to exist.
You will laugh again,
You will feel like you belong again,
You will love yourself again,
You won't be hurting anymore.

As insurmountable as it seems right now,
You will survive,
You are a Phoenix and you will arise from the ashes,
You will become who you're meant to be.

Everything will fall into place,
But until then, don't lost your spark
Don't lose your compassion
Don't try to be someone you're not
You are so beautiful
And who you are is what you should love about you.

Very soon, my dear, they will see
People will see the light that shines in you
They will see that you bring beauty to this world
They will fight to keep you in their lives

Very soon, you won't have to fight
You will be loved and cared for without having to give your entire person first
Your current life will become just another trial
And all the feelings you have now will be distant memories

You're going to look forward to each day
You're going to become the person you want to be
You're going to find what you deserve
Most of all, you're going to be happy
You're going to be SO happy

For now, just keep breathing,
Hold your head up high,
Dear Blue-Eyed Dreamer,
You're going to be fine.