Snowbarry- We are quite the pair

Why?

I started pacing my room, and I remembered that I basically promised Julian sex. I got really nervous and almost called in sick to work. I liked Julian i really did and I did have to move on from Barry, maybe it is time to move on and be with Julian, maybe... 

I walked into work and I was greeted by a smiling Barry. "Hey barry." I said softly. "hey Cait! How are you feeling?" "I'm wishing I had you're ability to not get drunk right about now." He laughed and just looked at me with the most sincere eyes. i felt myself wanting to kiss him so bad. So, I just walked away. I didn't look back, I couldn't. Ever since Flashpoint, my powers were getting harder to control, which meant my feelings for Barry are getting harder to keep in. Cisco was a big help in all of this. He made me a necklace to control my powers and I was very grateful. But i still had this sense that I was going to become killer frost and not be able to control myself. 

i went to the cortex and started doing some work, started looking for clues on where Savitar might be. Barry came in and sat next to me and started asking me questions, like what is my favorite color, whats my favorite drink, etc. I thought he was really cute. I answered all questions and occasionally looked over to him just looking at me with awe. I looked at him the same way. Then he asked me if I remembered anything about last night. "Not really, all I remember is me dancing with Julian then you taking me home. Why?" "I am just wondering and yes I did take you home and stuff happened." I panicked. Did we sleep together?!?! "Did we..." "No, but we did kiss." "Why are you telling me this? You are with iris and I.. I.. like Julian!" He looked at me his brows furrowed. "Do you really Cait? i see the way you look at me. The way I look at you. The way i feel." He reached for my hand, and I pulled away. "I can't Barr." "Cait please." I stood up and he stood up with me. "Did you think this wold change things Barry?!" "No but-" I cut  him off. "Barry you can not keep doing this, you love Iris that is how its always been, es we have had our moments but Barry please do not do this to us... to me." I walked out and I felt a whoosh. I was crying and I felt Barry in front of me. "It's okay Cait." He hugged me and I broke down. I whispered so softly to the point where you could barely hear me talk. "I have to go." I left his arms and I walked out of S.T.A.R Labs. I got into my car and drove. I ended up finding myself at Ronnie's grave. I sat down and I talked to his grave for hours. I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around and I saw Barry. "I knew, you would be here after I saw that you weren't home." "Barry-." "Don't. Just let me be here with you, for you, then I will pretend this never happened, okay?" "okay." He sat in the ground with me. "You know, Ronnie used to say we were like fire and Ice. I guess we are that." I took off my necklace. "Cait." "I'll be fine, I just want to see some snow, it has already been raining for a couple of days, we deserve some snow." I opened my hand and i let snow particles drift into the air to create snow. I stayed on the ground for a couple of minutes and decided it was time to go home. I looked at Barry at my side and said, "Thank you Barry." "You never have to say thank you to me, I am always going to be there for you." I nodded and got in my car. I offered Barry a ride but he had a dinner date with Iris.  I was stupid to think that last night changed anything. I drove home and I took a shower and I noticed a streak of white growing out of my hair. This time I didn't cut it out but left it. I went over to my couch, and sat and watched some netflix. 

The next morning I woke up everything mostly a blur. I did my routine, drink coffee, take a shower, do my hair, do my makeup, more coffee and drive to work. I arrive at S.T.A.R Labs and was greeted by Cisco, Barry, Joe, Julian and Iris. "Any news on Savitar?" "No not yet." Cisco said.  He also asked, " What's up with your hair?" "I like the white." They all looked at me puzzled and Julian came up to me. "We need to talk." "Ok." "In private." We walked in my office. "Do you want to go to dinner with me tomorrow night?" I was actually shocked. "Yes, of course! What time?" "How about 8?" I nodded. "Okay then I'll pick you up at 8." He winked at me and I blushed. I walked out of my office smiling. I looked over to Barry and he was kissing iris. I looked down and maybe we just weren't meant to be. Maybe it was meant to be this way all along. Did he really forget what happened yesterday? What he said about us? maybe I am just going insane. I walked over to Cisco. "Hey Cisco any news n metahumans?" "Not really it has been pretty quiet since Savitar." 

It was a very boring day. Barry ignored me the whole day, Cisco was working o his powers, Julian went to work with Barry, Joe also went to work and Iris left to Barry's and her apartment. I left eventually as well. I went up to my closet and looked through it trying to find an outfit for tomorrow night. I could not find anything! I heard a knock at my door. Maybe it was Julian. That's weird he shouldn't be here until tomorrow. I opened the door and I saw Barry. "Barry?" "Cait, sorry to show here so unexpected but I didn't know what to do." "About what?" "Iris she is acting weird and we got in a fight. And kicked me out fr the night. She kept saying that she was going to die. And I promised her she wouldn't and it just got worse from there. So, she just kicked me out from our home. And I didn't know where to go so I just came here..." "Barry you can't be doing this, it's not fair to Iris, to me..." "I know Cait, its just that..." "You should go before we do anything unforgivable." "I don't see it that way." he got closer to me. Lips only inches away. He kept getting closer and I let him knowing it was wrong. We were so close to the point where I felt his lips almost brushing against mine. Then... my phone rang. We jumped back and I answered. Something was wrong...

A.N- 

Hey guys hoped you liked this chapter! Sorry for not updating in a long time, I am trying to keep up, I promise. Please comment any suggestions you guys have and don't forget to comment and vote!! Don't be shy! I love everyone one of you guys and thank you for sticking around! 

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