Confessions of a Drug Dealers GF

Chapter 6

In mid hug I realize I'm mad at this nigga for lying to me. Scholarships my ass. Next thing I know I'm hitting him upside his head.
"How the fuck did you get arrested Devon?!" Hit. "Scholarships?! You fucking lied to me!" Another hit.
"What the fu-." He grabbed my throat in mid hit.
"Watch yo mouth girl my momma is right there" he said to me in the sexiest sternest voice I've ever heard. But I was not in the head space to be turned on. Argument sex is how my ass got pregnant anyways. He lets go of my neck and I apologize to his mother. But I'm not budging, this nigga got a lot of explaining to do.
"Can we talk about this later bae, I'm really tired." NO!
"Tired? Me too! Tired of being lied to for four fuc- for four years Devon!" I start hitting him again. Dj grabs my arms and pulls me upstairs to his room.
"START TALKING!" I scream. Dj sits down on the edge of his bed and puts his head in his hands. I'm standing directly across from him, arms folded, swear I'm not budging. He asks me to come sit next to him but I stay still. I was not in the mood for the games. I needed him to open his damn mouth and talk.
"No more lies. Tell me what is going on Dj." He looks at me for a minute and then he starts telling me everything.
He tells me that when he was in 9th grade, shit got hard and his daddy couldn't send money to his momma anymore. Her job also cut her hours so she wasn't making enough money to keep up with bills. One day his father called him and told him he had to be the man of the house. He tried to get a job but nobody was hiring no 14 year old boy with no experience in nothing. This was around the same time he started dating Mykia. Her uncle was in the dope game but he also owned laundry mats and shit to cover up his dirty money. Mykia put him on to a job just balancing check books for her uncle. Dj was good with numbers.
"Shit started off real legal." He said. He tells me how that little cash her uncle gave him wasn't helping much. He started selling for her uncle and helping him make his product. He said he liked that kind of money and it became more addicting than any drug. And they weren't struggling anymore. He would tell his momma he was the manager at the laundry mat. After awhile he got so good at it that Mykia's uncle would make people answer to Dj. But her uncle started acting funny and messing with Dj's money.
"So I went into business for myself with a JonJon, Marlon, your brother Quan and a couple other niggas." I outta beat Quan's ass. Dj continues to tell me how Mykia's uncle really hated him after while. Dj wasn't the only person her uncle was beefing with and one day he was found dead inside his laundry mat. Dj and Mykia started arguing a lot and they broke up.
"When I met you, you was such a good girl. You're my princess, I couldn't let you in on that life." All this time, I never knew he was so caught up in this. I never questioned where he got his money from. What about all those times places he told me he worked ?
"I really did work at my uncles mechanic shop & I really did work at the YMCA helping them lil niggas play ball."
Was he reading my mind? I was standing there listening to my boyfriend tell me about a secret life he lived that I knew NOTHING about! I didn't even know him. I've trusted him with everything. He was my first boyfriend, my first love, and I lost my virginity to him! I was always so honest with him and he couldn't be with me . I could literally feel my heart breaking. Why couldn't he trust me enough to tell me this?
"Babygirl I'm so sorry. I really am. I never wanted you to find out. I really planned on going to college with you and leaving all this behind."
I couldn't stop the tears from falling. I couldn't even feel my body. My stomach felt so tight. Fuck! I still haven't told him that I am pregnant. At this moment I'm sure I'm going throw up again. I run out the room.
"Bae!"