The boy who could fix

Chapter 4- Like a sleep machine

"Chapter4- Like a sleep machine"

I have made some rules. Roles based on my moms advice.

#1 Don't over feel. Don't get overly happy or to sad. Because in the end, everything is fake. 

It's not that I think feelings aren't there, is more like I don't believe they can overdrive you. They can't take control. I believe you decide yourself if you want to feel that or not. That you control yourself and with that you can decide how to react or feel in situations. So if you loose control the only person to blame is yourself.

#2 Always say what they want to hear. Don't let them think you are any different, don't let them mistaken you.

I made that after I got away from therapy. I didn't want to do that again, go through that again. So I had to make sure I didn't.  

#3 Just be neutral.

I follow these rules like it's my holy book. 

And my moms voice in my head is my God.

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Friday. It's holy freaking Friday. 

The first week has past by so fast. 

With Cole still ignoring me in the math classes we have together. The communication is sill minimal.  I intend to ask Jacob what he has against me, but then I think twice and just let it go.

Not everybody is going to like you, and thats okey. My moms voice say.

But other than that I have begun to hang out with Chris and some of her friends at school. Chris and I come along very well actually , she even invited me to go shopping with her on Saturday. Jacob still stands by my locker in the mornings when I arrive, its kind of our thing now. There we just greet each other and talk about silly and random stuff before the bell rings. 

Today is no exception. 

"Hi,Val" 

"Helo Jacob." 

We were just talking about some stupid stuff when suddenly a familiar voice says, "still up for the mall tomorrow". It comes from my side. 

I turn to see a smiling Chris with her books in her hands. 

"Yeah of course." 

"I'll text you the details later, see you in science class."

"See ya" I say back as she turn and begins to walk down the hall.

She didn't even notice Jacob, but he noticed her.

I turn back around to face Jacob.

"You have other friends?! I'm hurt" He says while he place his hands on the left side of his chest and plays hurt.

"Im sorry man." I say back.

"She's kind of ho..." he starts 

"No, Jacob no" I interrupt him shaking my head.

He puts his hands up like he just been caught by the police.

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"....so you put the water and then.." 

"Oh boy, that man is like a sleep machine" I whisper to Chris while I lay my head over my arms on the desk.  

We are in science class. I struggle so hard right now to not fall asleep,or just drop dead by how bored i'm right now. I actually like science so thats not the thing witch make me want to run away. It's the teacher.