I'll Love You For Always { A Zalfie Fanfic }

Zoe

The next few hours of the night were a complete blur. I just remembered that Alfie was there the entire time. He was always close by or touching me gently. Normally I hated when people touched me during my panic attacks, but for some reason this didn't bother me as much. 

I felt like fainting when we got back to the hotel but again, for some reason I didn't. I did start to cry from all the anxiety and the stress and the fact that I was embarrassed because Alfie was there for all of it. He handled it like a pro though and just wiped away my tears and wrapped me up in his arms. 

It was at that part of the night were I don't really remember anything after it. It really was a blur of happiness and sobbing and tears and just a lot of emotions. Louise was there, and Alfie, but that's all I know. 

Alfie was there. Alfie was there. Alfie was there. That thought was the last thought I had that night before I fell asleep. 

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I woke up to the harsh rays of light shining in my eyes. I opened them squinting; they stung as I looked around the room. Louise was asleep on her bed and at first sight I thought Alfie had gone home already. Or even worse I had imagined the entire night before when he had been with me taking care of me. 

Then I heard sounds in the bathroom and I smiled because I realised that he hadn't gone home and I hadn't made it all up. I laid back down on my pillow so I could pretend to walk up when he walked back in the room. 

He was in the loo for a while but finally he walked back into the room and I sat up slowly rubbing my eyes. I didn't even have to look at them to tell that they were bright red and puffy still from all my crying the night before. I was so embarrassed. 

I had a headache as well. 

The common side affects to my panic attacks. I sighed and the loud intake of breath caught Alfie's attention. He looked at me and smiled running a hand through his hair and making my heart skip a beat. 

"How are you feeling?" he asked sitting on the edge of my bed. 

"Much better," I said smiling at him. There was a brief pause before I spoke again, "Did you stay the whole night?" 

"Ya, I wanted to make sure you were okay. Louise said I should go home but I was so tired I kind of just conked out on the floor," he said with his crooked and childish grin which made my heart leap. 

"Thanks," I said my cheeks turning crimson. I looked away so he wouldn't see. 

"I'm going to run down to Costa and get some breakfast for us. Do you want anything in particular?" he asked standing up and pulling on his coat. 

"Anything's good for me," I said still smiling but still looking away from him. I heard the door open and I quickly said, "I like hot chocolate." 

He laughed before saying, "Got it," and then shutting the door. 

After I knew he was gone I flopped back on the bed and looked at the ceiling. If someone had told me a week ago that my favourite person in the entire world would have spent the night at my hotel room with me I wouldn't have believed them, it was so surreal. 

I was just trying to take it all one step at a time, I felt like if I overthought it too much I might faint out of excitement. 

This really was the best weekend ever. 

Whilst Alfie was still out Louise woke up and we started talking a bit. Then I remembered that today was Summer in the City day two and Louise and I had a meetup. I groaned a bit when I remembered but then I smiled because I knew that Alfie had said he was going to come with us. 

"Today is the first day of the rest of my life," I said with a genuine smile. It felt like the first genuine smile I had had in a while and it felt amazing. 

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