I'll Love You For Always { A Zalfie Fanfic }

Alfie

When I woke up the next morning I knew that there was only one logical thing I could do. I would have to say goodbye to Zoe and simply not talk to her again. It was the only way that my relationship with Kimmi could be safe, and that meant the world and more to me. 

I got ready before Kimmi had even woken up and decided to walk down to their hotel. It wasn't very far away from out flat. There were a lot of people out walking on their way to work and such. It took around twenty minutes to get to their hotel. 

I remembered their floor and room number from memory which scared me a bit. I decided to take the elevator instead of the stairs because I knew it would take me longer and I could think over if I really wanted to do this. 

Did I really want to terminate my friendship with Zoe just for Kimmi? Zoe and I had this friend chemistry about us, did I really want to let that go? 

When I got to their level I had made my decision, I wasn't sure if I was completely happy with it, but it was the one I was going with. 

It was early so I briefly wondered if they would even be awake. I then decided it was too early, only about 8 am and like the coward I was I retreated back down the stairs and out of their hotel breathing heavily. 

I was scared. 

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I spent the day shopping for Kimmi's birthday trying to get Zoe out of my mind. She kept creeping back into it though and my thoughts were overwhelmed by her. I knew that she and Louise would be leaving the city today and if I wanted to say goodbye to her I would have to do it now or never. 

At around 3 pm I got up the nerves to go back to their hotel and talk to Zoe. 

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"You're birthday's coming up," I said to Kimmi with a smile. I was trying to look happy and normal during our dinner but on the inside I felt sort of dead. After I went to talk to Zoe I came straight home to find an unsually happy Kimmi, which pleased me. But not as much as it should have. 

"I know, I'm so excited!" she said grinning at me as she took a bite of the salad that I had brought home. 

"I bought your present today," I added softly. 

"Is that why you were out?" she asked curiously. Kimmi was skeptical as to why I was out of the house all day. I felt bad lying to her, but really wasn't lying, I just wasn't telling the whole truth. 

"Yes," I said it through pursed lips. 

Kimmi smiled largely and looked at me, her eyes glowing before returning her attention back to her food. 

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Kimmi was on the computer editing a video and I was on twitter just looking at my mentions. I saw a tweet from Zoe and my heart lept. 

I knew I should scroll past it and ignore it but I couldn't. 

'@PointlessBlog Had such a fun time with you this weekend! Hope we can film together soon. :)' 

I remembered that I had promised her we would film a video together, but we hadn't done it this weekend, which meant she still thought we were going to do it in the future. 

She had thought that I was only saying goodbye for now, not forever like I had meant. 

This was going to be much harder than I previously thought it was going to be. 

xxx