I'll Love You For Always { A Zalfie Fanfic }

Zoe

I was just chilling on my computer scrolling through my tumblr dashboard when Alfie texted me. My heart lept when I heard the sound of my phone going off and I snatched for it quickly. 

A- 'Hey Zoe, it's Alfie. So could you and Louise meet me and Kimmi at Nandos on Oxford at 6:30? See you then!'

At first I was overjoyed that Alfie had texted me, but then my heart dropped when I realised that Kimmi was going to be coming to dinner with us. I tried to not let it bother me though and just remember that I was going to be having dinner with my favourite person in the world. 

"Louise, he texted," I said looking at her and smiling. I had been smiling the entire day, I couldn't stop. 

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"Which Nandos did he say?" Louise asked as we got into a cab. 

"The one on Oxford Street," I said to her. She then repeated the place to the cab driver and we were on our way. 

My legs were shaking I was so nervous. I was going to be sitting at a table with my idol for about two hours, I don't know if I could last without freaking out. 

"Just try to stay calm," Louise said with a smile as we got out of the cab and I paid the driver. 

As we walked up to the doors I could already see Alfie and Kimmi and my stomach erupted into butterflies. I was ahead of Louise so I opened the door and walked into the warmly lit room. Alfie saw me immeadiately and called us over to their table. 

"Zoe, Louise! It's great to see you again. This is Kimmi, my girlfriend," he said gesturing the dark haired girl sitting next to him. 

"Hi Kimmi, I'm Zoe. Nice to meet you," I said shaking her hand, which was surprising cold. Louise shook her hand and introduced herself and then we were all sitting down and ordering food. 

"So Zoe, what do you do as a profession?" Kimmi asked taking a sip from her drink. 

"I'm a Youtuber just like Alfie, and I have a blog," I said with a smile. I wanted to be her friend so badly, because she looked like the kind of person you didn't want to have on your bad side. 

"Nice," she said with a look that I wasn't sure was positive or not.

There was then an awkward silence where I did a small cough and then Louise started up conversation with Alfie about their pet cats. I kind of zoned out for a bit and just looked at Alfie and the way his face moved when he talked. He was even more beautiful in real life. 

I was shaken out of my reverie by Kimmi who started talking really loudly directly at me. I could feel her eyes burning a whole in the side of my head. 

"What?" I asked looking at her, I hadn't heard everything she had said since I really wasn't listening at first. 

"I asked if you have any pets," she said in an annoyed tone and I immeadiately felt embarrassed. Then I saw Alfie giving Kimmi a reproachful look and I felt better. 

"I have two guinea pigs named Percy and Pippin," I said meekly looking at my plate. I felt like I had done something wrong and I felt terrible. I just wanted to go back to our hotel room and sleep. I looked at Louise and gave her the look. 

Louise and I had a look that I used when I wasn't feeling well and having some anxiety. Ever since I was a teenager I had struggled with panic attacks and anxiety disorders. 

"Can you excuse us for a moment," Louise said sweetly taking my hand and leading me into the back where the loos were. "What number are you on on the scale?" she asked as I sat down in one of my chairs that was back there. 

"Five maybe," I said softly taking deep breathes. Louise and I had developed a scale so that I could tell her easily how anxious I was feeling in a situation. Ten was when I was having a panic attack. "Actually, seven," I said as my heart started racing and my palms started sweating. 

"Let's go back to the hotel," she said softly taking my hand. 

That was when I started to cry. This night was supposed to be perfect and instead it was the worst night ever. I was about to have a panic attack when my idol was here having dinner with me. Louise didn't say anything, she just hugged me and that made things a little bit better. 

"Let's go back to the hotel," I said softly through tears. I knew it was for the best. Just as we were about to stand up and walk back to the front of the restaurant Alfie walked back into the small hallway were we were situated. 

"Are you okay Zoe?" he asked kneeling so that he was next to me. I couldn't speak. 

"She's having a panic attack. I think we have to go back to the hotel. Sorry this night was totally crap," Louise said for me. 

"I'll come with you if you don't mind," Alfie said and I don't think I could have ever been happier during a panic attack then I was right then. 

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