"What Really Lies Behind A Mask That No One Seems To Penetrate"
On the outside, I am ordinary, plain, normal, and everything you could ever expect from a lively teenager. On the inside.. I am anything but.
There are things that mingle in my mind that I would never even dare share with others. There are words lost in time, poisoning me with regret at the thought of never ever having the chance of saying them. There is a never ending darkness and fear. There are thoughts that haunt me endlessly. There are monsters; deadly and merciless monsters. There is death. There is hatred. But there is also forgiveness. And there are stories. There are dreams that keep me alive. There are people whom I would die for. And there is love.
But just above the surface of all the unforgiving thoughts and murderous monsters, there is nothing. And it is as if all the madness never even existed. It is as if the girl you see and speak to never even felt such dreadful sorrow. It was as if the smile was real.
If that was the case, then you have been deceived. It was all a mask.
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These are very short stories that weren't - exactly - based on things I witness. Most of these are just stories I make up when I feel like it. Or the product of my imagination. Or sometimes, they are tricky - rather 'hinting' - sort of stories that ENTIRELY reflect on my thoughts. It just depends on how you decode them :). So basically, these are what I think about everyday and I type them all down and here they are ;) xx
Important Note:
There will be some stuff in here that you might not want to read about (self-harm, depression, suicide, etc..). Though I pay very close attention to how I word those things to make them seem - kind of - less disturbing? If that's how you put it.. I would still rather have you just stop right here if you're not comfortable with that. But if you know and relate to what I'm saying, I actually suggest that you continue.
Oh and just in case you were wondering, No, I don't self-harm. Sometimes I feel hopeless but that's just about it.
Anyway, proceed if you wish. And I hope you like it :) xx
- the author
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