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bad journal #26

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I want to get rid of you

But I don't want you to forget

And I don't want you to be forgotten

But I want to be rid of the guilt

And the pain, and the heartache.

Other than that, I just want you to know

That there is no demon holding your heart hostage anymore,

And you don't have to worry about it ever coming back.

Save yourself the agony and pack your bags, my love,

For I have booked you a train ticket;

A one-way trip towards some place safer;

A place where my monsters can't reach you anymore

And you won't be tempted to come back.

Get out the door now before I take hold again,

I beg of you, my love; run now.

Lock the door on your way out, and never turn around.

There are no bounds nor chains this time,

I will not keep you from breaking loose..

No.

For once, I just want you to keep yourself from breaking.

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I wrote this in 20 minutes really late at night so I guess it's one of those '2 am thoughts' which in my case are just entirely impulsive. I don't plan this out so I'm sorry if it may lack a bit of quality. I got the idea from two lines out of one of my unfinished poems. If you're curious as to what it was, it goes like this:

"You see, you need not feel like your heart is possessed
By the demon inside me that tore it to shreds."

So here's an afterthought, I just want you guys to comment (if it's not too much trouble) what you think this chapter meant and what the speaker was trying to say and who he/she is talking to/about. I just want to know how you decipher my poems. Aha.

Anyways, hope you're all feelin' lovely :)
My twitter is @illbetheheart btw if ya wanna witness my weirdness on a whole new different level, feel free x

- the author