My BabyGirl (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 23

Riley POV

I cut yesterday while Alex was at work.. Alex does no know. I did it on my thigh so she wouldn't notice it. For the past week I have been have nightmare of my ex, my old school bullies, and my mother disowning me. They were making me feel worthless. They made me want to go back and change them all but then I realized. If I changed them I would have still have been gay and got disowned but I would have never met Alex. I would have never moved. I would have never had the best 6 months of my life. I did three cuts on my thigh. I want to tell Alex but I'm scared. I mean I shouldn't be but...I don't know. Alex was on her way home from the bank, she had to cash her paycheck. I sat on the couch and waited for my world to come home.

" Baby girl , I'm home " Alex walked through the door. "Hey" I said smiling. She came over to the couch and pecked my lips.  " Did you have coffee?" I asked biting my lip. " Yea why?" she giggled coming around the couch. "Your lips taste like it" I smiled. She tackled me down on the couch while giggling. I giggled also. She placed kisses all over my face. " Baby.....S-stop" I said into between laughs. She was tickling my side. She stopped and sat up off of me. "You know you missed a spot" I crossed my arms and looked at her. She smiled and leaned in for a kiss. It was a perfect kiss. Every kiss was perfect. Every moment I have with her is perfect. She is perfect. 'I am going to keep it' I thought. When she pulled away she looked at me in the eyes. " Something is not right" she said. " W-what do you mean?"  I moved back more into the couch and looked down. " Well, when your upset your eyes get dilated , you just stuttered, and you are backing away from me and hiding you beautiful face" she picked my face up by my chin with my finger. I held back tears. I stood up and pushed down my pants which were Alex's shorts. She had one down to the knee so I wore them. I sat down and look at her. She looked at me confused. I pulled back my boy cut underwear to reveal three clean cuts. She looked down and gasped. A tear slipped from my eye and fell onto her hand which rubbing my cheek. I leaned over and embraced her. "I'm sorry" is all I managed to get out. I cried. This was all my fault. I could have just stayed strong. I could have just blocked the nightmares out but I couldn't. She just stroked my hair a pecked my forehead. " I'm sorry" Is all I kept saying over and over. She probably is tired of me doing this. She probably hates me when I do this.

Alex POV

I sat there for who know how long pecking her head and stroking her beautiful hair. She was always beautiful. Even with her scars. She is my world. She pulled away and sat up. I wiped her eyes. " Will you tell me why?" I choked out. I was going to cry. I hate seeing my babygirl in pain. I hate to see her upset. I will never hate her and I know she knows that. "I been having nightmares f-for the past week, they have been about the r-rape...the old bullies at my old school....and my mother disowning me...and I j-just feel w-worthless from t-them..." she said as a single tear ran down her cheek. I wiped it away as some fell from my eyes. She wiped my eyes but I kept on crying. " Why didn't you tell me?" I pulled her for another hug. God I loved her so fucking much. I don't want to see her hurt her self. " I was scared" I heard her say into my neck. I pulled back from the hug. " Never be scared to tell me anything, I will never get mad at something like that. I will hug you. I will kiss you. I will help everything be fine. I'm here for you. Please don't be scared." I said wiping my eyes. She smiled and looked down again. " I'm sorry" . I picked her face up so her face was between my hands. " It's ok" I kissed her lips. It was soft and passionate. " I love you so fucking much"  I pecked her lips once more. " I love you too" she said standing up with her cheeky beautiful smile. I smiled back. " Wait, baby are you wearing make-up?" she touched under my eye. I blushed and said " Yeah, I was trying to do it, cause I have never done it". She giggled and 'awed'. " Come on lets go and wash BOTH of our make up off" I grabbed her hand and headed towards the bedroom.