the girls of the boys

bermuda bound

We had to wait about ten minutes for Niall and Zayn to get to the flat before all five boys stood looming over us like they were are parents right after they read our report cards.

"Um, what's happening?" I heard Kirsten squeak and glanced at Louis who kept his expression serious. I saw Becca looking at her shoes and fiddling with her fingers so that she wouldn't have to make eye contact with Zayn.  

"Well," I heard Zayn start out, "I never got you anything for your birthday," he said trying to make eye contact with Becca. She gave him quick glance before looking back at her shoes. I heard Zayn sigh before Harry continued.

"And I don't plan to get anything for your birthday," he said to Kirsten who's head shot up when he said that. Her mouth was open and poised to say something, but she shut it and held her curious look on Harry.

"And since you're birthday isn't until August, I don't have to worry about it," Louis laughed at nudged Harry's side and Harry shot him a pained expression. "Right then, anyway, since they didn't get you guys anything for your birthday yet, we decided to combine your gifts and-"

"We're all going to BERMUDA!" Niall finished with a triumphant shout, jumping in front of the other boys.

"Mate, you interrupted me, you were gonna let me tell them." Louis said, pouting his lip.

"Oh, sorry, we can do it over?" Niall said genuinely concerned.

"Hello? Zayn and I aren't going to Bermuda," Becca said loudly making firm eye contact with Harry and Louis.

"Uh, why?" Zayn asked, sounding a bit ticked.

"Zayn. Can I talk to you in the other room?" She hissed quietly as she rose from the couch. Zayn sighed and scratched his head before following her into the bedroom.

"Well that was awkward," Louis said glancing between all of us.

"Are we really going to Bermuda?" Kirsten asked skeptically as she stood from the couch.

"Yes, of course, I want this to be the best trip ever." Harry smiled pulling her into his arms. He wrapped his arms around her shoulders and pulled her close to him smiling into her hair. I stood to meet Louis who was swiveling to and fro looking for nothing in particular.

"So is this my birthday present too?" I asked smiling up at him while I wrapped my arms around his torso.

"Would you be offended if it was?" He asked smiling slightly kissing on the top of my head. I shook my head in response and laid my head on his chest. My eyes wandered to the closed door where I could hear muffled sounds and voices.

In the Bedroom:

"Zayn. We are not going to Bermuda together . . ."Becca said taking a shaky breath but holding her eye contact.

"Becca, why not?" His voice was calm but he ran a frustrated hand through his hair, "I thought you'd be excited."

"I would be if I wasn't so . . . so"

"So what? Just tell me what's wrong, you've barely spoken to me after Perrie came by."

"Zayn. I'm scared okay? Really fucking scared."

"Of what?" He asked, his voice had adapted a gently undertone.

"Zayn, when that baby comes, you can't honestly tell me that you won't spend time with Perrie and your kid."

"No, I will obviously spend time with them, why is that such a problem to you? Don't you trust me?"

"Yes, I trust you but," she ran a hand quickly through her hair and let out a long sigh, "You and Perrie were a thing, like a real, legit, 'thing'" she said putting 'thing' in quotes with her fingers.

"Yeah? So what?"

"You had feelings for her, what if . . .seeing her with your child . . .resparks those feelings and you leave me for her." she said in one long breath.

"Becca . . ."He said running his hand along her jaw. "Perrie is in my past, you are my present, and you are all I want." He said looking at her for a long moment.

"But the past and the present are exploding right now because now there's a future. Zayn, you have such a tender heart, when you see that baby you'll leave me right there for her and that child. I can't blame you but I also can't, can't risk it." she said looking away from him.

"Becca," he said taking his shoulders, "when I first saw you, with your little blonde bun, and your skinny jeans, I thought, first, damn, and second, I'm going to meet that girl, and nothing, and no one will stop me. And here we are today, please don't leave me because you're scared of what tomorrow might bring. I'm not going to leave you. I'm going to be a damn good dad but I'm not going to be a shitty boyfriend to you because of my other responsibilities, I love you Becca. So much." He gently turned her head and met her lips with his.

"Do you trust me?" he asked, pulling away slightly.

"Yes," she breathed before kissing him again. "Let's go to Bermuda." she smiled, leading him out to the others.

All of our heads looked up from the itinerary as Becca and Zayn came out. Becca was on Zayn's back which automatically meant things were semi back to normal.

"We're going to BERMUDA!" Bacca shouted from on Zayn's back.The whole room erupted into shouts of excitement. Kirsten and I ran over to Becca and crushed her in a hug of excitement.

"So when are we going?" I looked over my shoulder at Louis who was hanging back with Harry and Liam.

"Two days? Yeah?" He said glancing at Harry and Liam for affirmation.They both nodded after shrugging at each other