(Sad Ending/Original) The Love I Needed

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This is the original ending I wanted to to with and it's really sad so.... HAVE FUN! LIN LOST THE OSCAR I'M CRYING!!!!!! I like the happy ending better.
Alexander's POV

   Hercules helps me stand up. Neither John's heart nor brain is working other than with the help of machines. The doctor passes out the suicide notes to everyone. I hold mine I refuse to think John is dead he can't be. I read my letter

   Dearest Alexander,

I apologize for my way of things. I understand this will be hard for you. I want you to know that out of many people you were the most exquisite. I may not be able to tell you in person I love you. Your eyes held something that made me want to drop and as I write this letter the only thing I want to do is see you again, your eyes. I don't even care of your typing on that computer that annoys the shit out of everyone. I just want to see you again and I know I will. I ask of you only to live on for me. I want you to have a life, have kids (I know you wanted a boy), get a well jib and marry someone who is as crazy for you as I was. I don't want you to look at this as a bad thing, I did what I wanted, I will be happy at the afterlife. I can go on and on about how you saved me, you made me not want to. You were the reason I was on this earth. You may wonder why I wanted to leave so badly then. If I stayed for you, you would have gotten hurt and that is not something I could bare. I hope you look back at the short memories and know that I will always love you.

                                     Love always,
                                               John Laurens

   I laugh a little at the letter, like when he complained about my laptop, or when he told me to look back at the memories and I remember the time he told Jefferson that he couldn't complain about gays, because he was sucking Madison's dick every weekend. John made me happy and to know that John felt the same way made me love him more. I looked up and remembered we have to say our goodbyes, but he could live like that right. I look at Laf who has tears rolling down his cheeks and Hercules is holding his hand trying to confort them "Not gay my ass" John had said once.

"Should we pull the plug?" Laf brings up. I looked at him.

"I-i I really don't want to. I want him to have a chance of waking up even if it's the slightest, but come on Laf that's no way to live." I reply.

"HIM being abused was no way to live!" Lafayette yells at me the bystanders look at us. "I don't want to admit you're right, but I know you are." Lafayette said crying into Herc's shoulder. People go in the room and say goodbye.

   I decide to go last. Everyone is a crying mess by the time I get in. I'm in the room alone with him. I touch his face, I wish he would open his eyes. I grab his hand.

"John. I wish you could wake up. I read your letter I love you to. Why'd you do it? I could've helped get you through it, I could've made you happy we could've had a family. I tried to protect you I tried to make sure you would stay alive. I tried and I know your tired. And I could go on and on about how sorry I am that I couldn't help, and that I'm so sorry things ended the way they did, but I know this is what you wanted." I kiss his head. I want to say more, but he can't hear me.

   I go get the doctor and everyone to tell them that I'm ready. I stand by John's side holding his hand. The nurse grabs the plug and as a single tear falls down her face she pulls it.

John's POV  (One last time)

   Alex! Alex! I scream. He's holding my hand. I squeeze his hand. I'm exhausted I want to sleep. I regret this. I wanna see Alexander again. I open my eyes as much as I can.

"Oh my God! John!" He shouts. "John keep fighting don't worry I'm here for you." He says, but I don't want to. I want to die this is to painful. I just wish I could say goodbye face to face.

"I'm tired." I can barely hear myself, but some how Alex hears me. I hear long beeps stopping for a moment.

"Okay. I understand. Sleep." Are the last words I hear as I slowly drift off.

  I have a million thoughts, but most of them go unanswered as I slowly lose consciousnessssss...

Alex's POV

   The beeping doesn't stop this time. It goes on and on and on, Herc turns it off. Eliza puts her hand on my shoulder. She forgives me. I don't forgive myself, not only what I've done to her, but what I did to John. I cry. Everyone has left, but I'm still wishing John was alive.

"Thanks god." I hear a familiar voice that I loath.

"What the hell do you want?" I ask standing by John's side. "This" I gesture to John "this is your fault!" I shout at him.

"It was just as much my fault as it was yours. You're the dumb ass who pressured him, you're the dumb ass who couldn't keep him on this earth. Don't get me wrong I didn't help it, but neither did you." What Henry was saying was true. I'm not gonna fight him. "Tell the hospital to throw him out, I don't give a shit." Henry says as he walks out. No I'm gonna bury him I know I don't have money, but John deserves it. John deserves to be alive.

Time skip.

   Everyone was at John's funeral. I never left his side. Laf cried into Herc's shoulder most of the time. The Schuyler Sisters payed their respects and Eliza stayed by my side. Thomas and James also payed their respects then left. Everyone payed their respects and left. They didn't mean it. Except Mr.Washington he patted me on the shoulder and said it will be okay. This will scar me for life.

Time skip.

   Me and Eliza got married. We were happy and I loved her, but my heart longed for John who would now be in the ground. Me and Eliza had many kids. I tried to be happy with her. Our son Phillip died. I don't know how she's dealing with it, but it's been three years. I don't know I'm gonna see John soon. Follow in my cousins footsteps. Everyone was gone. I grab onto the bible and I make the same commitment that John and my cousin had done.

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