Introspection

Out of Hand

I humiliated myself today
Well let's just say....
Things got out of hand
I had to cling to metaphorical land
My mind moved too fast again
I had so many thoughts I had to reign
I had a partial seizure during class
So many terrible thoughts trespassed
My brother was there
But all he did was give me a glare
He left the class with everyone else
They all saw me melt
You know, the judging people in school
Those who think they're cool
When they're really just full of themselves
They look at everyone else like they are elves
Towering above them, showing their place
Thinking they're made of grace
But that's not the point
I hate to disappoint
I totally disappointed me
Do you see?
Is crying going to heal my scars?
So that one day, maybe I can see the stars?
No
I know
It won't help. It only makes me weaker
So I march on, looking even meeker
Only two people asked how I felt
Amazing, how little people can tell
Even though I look and feel like death
"Just gotta catch my breath"
I tell them, once again lying
But at least I'm trying
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2-27-17
Gotta remember that date. I'm again writing late. 11:58. Night night. Hope this day can be forgotten by other people.