Introspection

Confidence

I have no confidence.
It's a bit of a problem.
It has a consequence.
It's really not that awesome.
When someone tells me I lost my confidence, so now I need to believe in myself, I cry.
That happened today in fact.
I'm a runner and I haven't improved in a full year, I promise I try.
They said that I just needed confidence to improve, and oh I cracked.
I started sobbing while in the car.
I hate myself.
I cried so much I could've kept all those tears in a jar.
I need to believe in myself.
I do more work than most people who run.
Yet they're all better than me.
I spend so many hours under the sun.
Running, working, but I still can't be.
The best.
I'm bad at all things.
It's like I'm wearing a heavy vest.
Sometimes, I wish I had wings.
So I could fly away from all this pain.
To somewhere better.
But then, life would be lame.
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So yeah. I have no confidence. I hate myself. Fun fun fun. I'm terrible at everything. Just thought I'd inform u of these facts. Cya later. It's 11:28 pm btw.