Get Me Through The Night [Completed]

Chapter 1: One Year

One year.

It's been one year since the war, a year ago people died, Boggs, Cinna, Finnick, Prim... everyone on my side who showed me nothing but kindness was taken from me, the man I started to love was hijacked and couldn't even remember how much he actually loved me, my best friend left me here alone to just sit here watching the day go by, too afraid to sleep as the terrifying nightmares wait for my return. When the war was over Paylor became the new president and has built most of the districts the same as they were but all poor worn out houses were replaced with clean new ones, I personally haven't set foot out of my home and I don't plan to anytime soon I mean why should I? I have no purpose her... I helped win the war, I helped bring freedom but what do I do now? Sit around all day and just starve myself? I should've been the one to die... not Prim, Prim had so much more to experience, so much more learning to do but that was all taken from her by that stupid bomb, the stupid bomb from District 13, the bomb that blew her up while I was looking, my poor little duck.

As I sit on the couch as usual, staring into space, my front door opens but I just think it's Sae coming to clean or bring me food that I don't eat but it's not, it's Haymich with the usual liquor bottle in his hand

"Well, well, well. I see you haven't changed" he grumbles sitting in the brown leather arm chair, I don't answer

"You look like shit" he admits but I still don't listen, he sighs

"You can't just block the world out. That's not how life works, well not for yours"

"Don't talk to me about how life works. This is not living, my mom in district four, my little sister is dead, my best friend abondoned me for a fancy new job. This is not how life is suppose to work" I spit at him and he takes a sip of the golden liquid

"And the boy?" He asks, I look down at my lap

"I don't want to talk about him. He doesn't love me anymore" I reply but he scoffs

"That boy is nothing but in love with him. I don't know why but he is"

"You talk to him?"

"A couple of times. He should be coming home in a few days time. His treatment has started to finally kick in" he explains

"So he's moving back here?" I ask

"Where else will he go?" Haymich scoffs and I fall silent again, why would Peeta come back? Out of all places why come back to twelve? There's nothing here for him, he needs to go to another district, marry a beautiful woman and have children which are two things I can't give him, marriage means kids... well it does in my head and in my head the word children means red flags, who would bring such an innocent life into such a cruel world? I couldn't bare to have a baby only for it to die straight away, that's something I'll never agree to, my mind has been made up. I Katniss Everdeen am not having children or getting married. No one loves me anyways, so I don't have to worry about getting married or having kids.

Haymich left a few minutes later and seeing as it was dark, I had tried to sleep but of course I woke up in the middle of the night screaming my lungs out, the nightmare haunts my mind, replays itself, the mutts attacking and killing everyone I ever loved as president Snow and Coin both gave an evil smirk than an evil laugh, the nightmares are horrible, almost unbareable and I can't stop thinking of all my nightmares, not one good dream comes to mind when I have nightmares, it's always nightmares that fill my mind, there was only one person who could make them go away and he's not here... he is safe from me and in the Capital, seeking his treatment, he deserves better than me.

I lay in bed curled up in a ball cuddling Buttercup for comfort, although I hate this cat he comforts me and in a way he needs comforting, we both haven't gotten over our Prim dying and I don't know if we ever will.

"Katniss dear. You must get out of your bed and eat" Sae states picking up dirty clothes

"I can't... I can't" I croak hugging tighter to Buttercup

"Why don't you go outside to the woods? Go hunt. They took the gates down"

"I don't want to, not today Sae. I just want to rot away in this bed"

"Katniss Violet Everdeen, you get out of that bed, dress and eat or I will do it myself" she says which somehow scares me and I do as I'm told, I dress in a black t-shirt, brown skinny jeans, my hunting boots and my fathers hunting jacket, I walk over to the mirror and look at myself, my clothes bagging around me which proves just how skinny I've gotten but also how hungry I actually am and so before leaving I eat three rounds of breakfast that Sae made before she left, maybe I could get some squirrels or rabbits then I could maybe trade some to the butcher? Yeah, that sounds like a plan.

I take a deep breath in then out and I let go of my arrow, right in the eye, I smirk to myself knowing I haven't lost my hunting skills, I had forgotten just how peaceful it is out here... god I've missed this so much, just hunting by myself and letting go of all my problems just for a little while and it's like my nightmares have disappeared for now, I feel free, I feel like myself again.

This'll be the last time I ever republish this book I promise, give me feedback xxxx