secret royalty - s.m

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(3 months later)

I remember the stupid little things that he did.

Those little things made me smile like a maniac. I remember the way I felt when our hands accidentally brushed. I remember our kisses, he always held me tight like I was going run away or something. I remember I was scared our first time. I chickened out and he told me we didn't have to have sex for him to know he loved me.

That was the first time he told me that.

He loved me and I said it back. I said it back like a fool because I knew in the end I couldn't drag him into my crazy life. We fell in love so fast and so hard.

I regretted it.

I regretted letting him fall for me. I was the bad person. I knew word would get around fast but not this fast.

Yes.

I remember our last conversation. You and I left crying, going separate ways. I remember the flight back home, I cried myself to sleep. When I got to the castle I saw my mom and cried myself to sleep again. In the morning I laid in bed and wished you were next to me.

I miss you Shawn.
Fück this is all my fault.
I
ruined
you.