Habits Of My Heart.

I Give Her What I Can.

Abel chases me on along the shore and I try heading back to the rocks but he tackles me into the hot sand before I can run any further.
"Gotcha"
"Hehe damn this sand is hot oww"
Abel picks me up quickly brushing the sand off me.
"Sorry heh... ready to go home or go to....." He starts thinking and he gets a idea.
"How about a date night?"
"Abel sure anything to spend time with you hehe" I flush and he kisses my red cheeks
"Why are you blushing?" He looks at me
"Well I'm showing alot of emotion so it overwhelms me"
"Alot of emotion?" I watch him look down for a second before looking into my eyes.
"Well how about this?" He kisses my forehead as he closes his eyes.
"Let's get dinner and go home. We still have to set up that library in the new house you know."
"Oh yay...hmm how is it going to be set up?"
"It depends. I'll set it up tomorrow instead. I bought alot of books so they will be sent here by tomorrow."
"Let's go babe" I grab his hand leading him to the car.

"Baby?....... Baby?" He looks at me as I zone out.
"Huh?" I look at him after a moment
"Are you okay? You been doing this for awhile now." He looks at me waiting for a answer.
"I'm just thinking babe don't worry"
I stare at Abel as he pulls into the house and turns the car off

"Babe?" I stare at him as he doesn't move
"Katherine....what's wrong? What has been bothering you?"
"Babe I'm just thinking what's going to happen in the future with us. I'm getting worried that you would.....leave me..... for another girl....." He looks at me as I look down
"Katherine.....i...."
I get out the car and I quickly get in the house heading straight for the stairs.

"Katherine...."
Abel chases after me and he stops at the stairs
"Why is she thinking that way? Why is she doubting herself....." It hits Abel at that moment and he covers his mouth
"I don't want any other girl.....I want her."
He runs a hand through his hair and looks up the stairs getting worried about me
"Goddammit....."
He walks into the library and he sits at the beautiful piano infront of him.
"I need to let out some steam"
He sits carefully while putting his hands gently on the keys.
"I only want her...."
Abel starts playing a very sad song.

<(Julien Marchal - Insight XIV)>

The song intertwines with his emotions and what exactly he is feeling. He puts his emotions towards the keys and makes sure every key holds the emotional effect of what he is feeling.
Katherine hears the music and she looks down knowing she regret saying that to him.

She walks silently downstairs and sees the door cracked with him playing. She peeks and watches his every move with his fingers against the keys. Katherine starts to cry because the music is beautiful. She tries to stay silent as it begans to close off.

Abel touches the last key and he looks down thinking about her. He runs a hand through his hair biting his lip in frustration.
"What am I going to do...." Abel hears her sniffle and he looks back
"Katherine...." She looks at him still while he stands up heading to her.
"Kat...why are you doubting yourself?" He opens the door more and looks into her eyes.
"Katherine please why do you feel like I'm going to leave you for another girl?"
"Im not enough..."
"Katherine....You are enough. You are everything I want and I Love You.
Stop feeling like this!" Abel closes his eyes and calms down.
"I don't want to yell but im trying to explain that.....something like that won't fucking happen....I Love You."
Abel presses his lips together and he starts getting pissed off.
"Im going to cool off. Stop this shit Katherine I tell you many times. I know you have been hurt okay I'm doing everything I can to make sure our future is going to be as we both planned. I'm Making you my fucking wife. What does that tell you Katherine? I fucking LOVE you."
Before she can even respond he passes her and goes towards the door.

-Later That Day at the coffee shop with Jack.

"So what's got you all riled up?"
"Katherine is doubting herself...."
"Your girl?"
"Yeah....I do not understand why the hell she does that.... I Give Her What I Can....."
"Look she is thinking man. You must've did something for her to think like that"
"I did.....Two incidents. That was my fault. I went to a party Waiting for her but her family kept her in. I got drunk and of Course I wake up sleeping beside a girl that I just fucked that night."
"Oh I see. Abel look at yourself.....all I see is hotness and a damn man that is gonna have girls crawling all over him."
"How do I prove it to her Jack?"
"What's the second incident? Then I can come up with a more understanding."
"I brought friend over that was a girl that liked me and she sneaked a chance to kiss me infront of Katherine Because she "liked" me. I didn't do anything but kick the girl out."
"That's the problem....Because these girls are crawling all over you man. Prove to her that she is the only one you see in your eyes. Love is a great thing but it has the bad sides."
"God...Can I get a break now?" He chuckles and Jack shakes his head while smiling.
"I don't know man heh" Jack calls the waiter and orders two more coffees.
"Thanks I'm going to have to go back and try to make her understand."
"Yeah I get it...Girls would do that these days you don't know what they went through sometimes."
"That's something as well about her. She has been hurt alot."
"Damn....she shouldn't be hurt though. She is beautiful and kind."
"Yeah I'm surprised she doesn't leave me for some famous guy"
"Yeah that's good though that she wouldn't. Heheh don't worry about her doing that. Hmm keep a open mind about it though you can find out alot about someone."