January 6, 2015.
Today is back to school, I walk into school hoping that I'd see Justin and there he was. I call out, "Justin...I need to talk to you." He turns and answers, "What?"
"I want to know...why, or more likely, what did I do." He doesn't answer, just looks down at the floor. I ask again, "Why?" He finally answered, "Because, I never wanted to be with you, I...I never loved you." He walked off, as I stood there watching him walk off, many thoughts run through my head. Sadly one was death. I sit in homeroom and I tell my self I'm being too dramatic, I need to calm down. Until I put my head on my desk, unhappy I don't lift it again as someone calls my name. I don't like it here anymore. After school I walked to the park, looking to the tree on my left. There it was, the first place we met. I walked toward the woods and as I entered there I see the spot of my first kiss, and it's more beautiful the last time I was here. I looked at the cabin, I remembered his birthday party. I feel lost inside the more I remember. As I get home I look through the mail to find the news paper, and I read the cover: Teenager fell into a pit, known dead. I think this world is cruel, I turn to the date of the page it was 3 days ago. I turn to the news to see everything happening today, to find a kid was murdered yesterday. I walk into my room, turn the music up and read, until I get a message from Christina it says, "Carlos are you okay?" I hate that question, no one is ever "okay." I answer back, "yeah I'm fine." I didn't get a reply, so I went back to reading. I remember back at lunch I sat down at his table, I mean I am there, with friends. I became more and more friends with them, already Luna is my best friend. I close my eyes, and I fall asleep, as my eyes are shut, I see myself, I guess I'm dreaming. I don't look sad at all, but I was wrong, I can't say anything as I watch a other story. No wait my story play before my eyes, I see a gun. I can't speak or move like someone has something over my mouth and is holding tight, I see them talking and the less I struggle I can hear better. I listen and they talk, I say, "I wish this never happened." Justin is there he says, "No don't say that, it's alright you don't have to do this." I see that I put my hand in my pocket and bring out a gun, I struggle to stop me, and I move the gun to my temple. I struggle more, until I say something I couldn't hear and Justin ran towards me and I hear bang. I wake up with tears in my eyes, unknown what I saw, I walk toward my computer hoping to look up something or do something. I'm frightened on what I saw and I wish it'll never happen.January 7, 2015.
I don't feel good today, I had the dream twice now. I am scared by it, so I promised my self never to do anything foolish. I walk into school to see Justin, I walk past and didn't say anything, I still love him. I never really been upset at him but I feel like I make him mad. I walk into homeroom and seats were changed again, this time I sit next to Alec. I would be fine sitting to a person who hates me more then next to him, but in front of me is Geoff. I remember him when he helped me with that last problem I had. As I look through my phone the first thing I see is Justin he's still on my phone screen, I guess I never really wanted to change it. I get a message, I open it to find something from Justin I still have him saved in my contacts. It reads: "Carlos I know you still want an explanation, just meet me after school." I don't know what I want to do, I love him, I need an explanation but I still believe it's still my fault. I gave up on the dream it doesn't seem possible, I'd never do that. I answer back: "I'll see you then." I know it's bad for me to still be committed to him, but I don't care.
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Love Could Last Forever
RomanceStory based on two boys who love each other for who they are. Nothing was a problem but as you may think... Carlos goes through the stage of loving Justin over again and he wants it to last. The Chapters are short only due to, later on in the chapt...