Speaking To The Gods

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I didn't know what I expected, I thought maybe he was gonna kill me, or kiss me, or who knows what? The situation was hard to read. I know that.

His grip on my face was still tight, maybe not tight enough to hurt me, but definitely hard enough to scare me, plus I had the feeling that if I tried to move, he'd make it hurt.

He let go of me, and chuckled, which wasn't something I expected at all.

"Calm down Damara! There's no need for you to be afraid. If I wanted to hurt you, I would have." He smirked, as he stood.

The waves calmed, the storm stopped, and the sky cleared, the beach was peaceful again. I let out a deep breath, I was too scared to breath whenever Poseidon had me like that. It felt good to do it again. He held out his hand, and when I took it he helped me to my feet.

"But, honestly, I don't quite know why you'd sleep with him..or better yet, why you'd ask him what he knew about your situation. When, I specifically asked you not to..but, maybe you're more deceitful than I thought. Maybe you have a plan? Please, tell me that you do Damara." He stated crossing his arms, and cocking his head.

I cleared my throat, and shook my head.

"H-how'd you know any of that? How are we even here? This is just a dream right?" I asked. He chuckled softly, and  took a step towards me, and I took a step back. Still terrified of him. Which he must've noticed, because he cocked his eyebrows at me, and breathed a laugh. But, he stayed still, and didn't take another step, which I was thankful for.

"Yes. This is a dream. I requested, well forced, Hypnos to help me. And, Damara, since I'm in your dreams, I have access to your thoughts your mind, and your memories." He explained.

That, made me angry. He was in my head, without permission or reason. And he was forcing the god of sleep to help him. My face hardened and I clenched my fists.

"Are you kidding me?! You're in my head? And who gave you permission to do that?!" I asked, as I walked closer to him and began to hit his chest, this time, it was him backing away from me. He looked completely shocked.

"This is my head! You have no business being here." I continued, still pushing on his chest. He grabbed my wrists, and exhaled sharply.

"Stop. It."

I rolled my eyes, and headbutted him as hard as I could, and thankfully, he let go of me.

And grabbed his lip, which I had busted open. It healed quickly. But, he looked very unamused. I smirked, and crossed my arms. "Don't look at me, you're in my head. You should've known it was coming."

He chuckled. And nodded, before getting very close to me again, he took my hand in his, and smiled, looking from my lips to my eyes again. But, I wouldn't let myself be scared, now that I knew he could see my fear.

He cleared his throat. "Perhaps I've been unfair. Allow me to fix it." What he did after that, was entirely unexpected. He opened his mind to me. Allowing me to see everything, just as he could with mine. All the memories. All the things, that I already knew he'd done. And some things that I didn't.

But, the thing that stood out the most, was the reasons behind his mistakes, and sins.

Poseidon, was doing all this, so that he wouldn't appear weak to Zeus. He hated himself. But, he didn't wanna turn out like Hades. He didn't want Zeus to punish him, he wanted to look strong and merciless.

And, he lost himself, over and over again. He had to become, someone else to survive, until he actually began to like it. To me, it seemed sad. To lose yourself, to pretend like you were okay.

To watch yourself be destroyed, when you're the one doing the destroying.

It was a lot to take in, all that I'd seen. I tensed up, and gasped. I noticed his smirk, when he let go of me, and was done showing me everything. I take it, the memories, were supposed to make me scared of him. But instead, I just hugged him tightly, taking him by surprise. I felt sorry for the god of the sea.

"This isn't you."

Was all I said, before I was woken by one of Athena's nymphs, I could've swore that he hugged me back. But, I was probably mistaken. The nymph smiled at me.

"Miss, are you hungry?"