Speaking To The Gods

Hypnos

It'd been a week, since the last real interaction I'd had with Poseidon. Sure, he was still around, but only in my head. And, our connection was weak, because I hadn't slept. My mind wasn't in the right place. I wanted to see him, and speak to him, it put me at ease.

But I couldn't sleep. I wouldn't.

I couldn't face my fears, not all of them as once, because well, I was afraid of them to state the obvious.

But, I was so tired. I didn't know if the things I was seeing, were because Poseidon was in my head, or because I was hallucinating. Frankly, I didn't care.

Poseidon sat across from me, much like he did the day he was in my dream. Of course, I wasn't scared this time, and he wasn't trying to intimidate me. He took my hand.

"Damara..you have to sleep, please." He begged, holding my hand with both of his. I sighed. "I..I..can't. I can't fight my nightmares."

Poseidon shook his head. "You won't have to. I'll be there. I can help, I'm in your head, and I still have Hypnos's help." He explained.

I was still hesitant. I didn't know if that was a guarantee or not. But, I could barely keep my eyes open. Poseidon sat behind me, and rubbed my shoulders, as I laid back against his chest. He wrapped his arm across my chest, and kissed my cheek Slowly, I drifted off.

My dreams, were fine. White sanded beach, blue ocean hitting the shore. Peace. Serenity. But, I didn't see Poseidon.

I heard screaming, in the distance, but decided, it was best not to follow it.

I felt rested, and calm. All thanks to him, I felt something that I hadn't in awhile.

Safe.

It went on like that for the next few weeks, he was never in the dreams though, which was strange.

One day, and I don't really know why, I wanted to follow the screams. Find out who they belonged to. What I saw, shocked me.

I thought Poseidon made it to where nobody, had to deal with Zeus's nightmares. But, I was wrong. Poseidon had to.

Poseidon, was dealing with his greatest fears, because of me, so that I wouldn't have to. Knowing that, was enough to scare me awake.

And Poseidon was sitting there with me, like he always did.

He frowned, when he realized that he couldn't hide that from me anymore. I was disappointed that he could see into parts of my mind, that I couldn't see in his. But, I understood why he did it.

He looked tired. Like he'd been to hell and back, because technically he had.

I sat up on my knees, much like he was, and hugged him tightly. He definitely hugged me back this time, more trusting of me now.

Poseidon's greatest fears, were his past. The things he'd done. He always tried to forget them, and pretend they didn't happen. It was hard to do that, when they were right in front of him.

He started to cry, into my shoulder.

"I..I can't change it, and I want to. I wanna change it so bad. But, it's there. I did those things...and everyone remembers me for it. No matter how hard I try, I'm always gonna be the god, that made storms, and shipwrecks for fun. I'm always gonna be just as bad as Zeus. I'm always gonna be the villain."

I grabbed his shoulders and looked him in the eyes, shaking my head. I cupped his face.

"Remember when you told me you weren't the hero?" I asked. He looked a bit confused, but nodded, wanting to know where I was going with this.

"I don't believe that. I think you're the hero of a story that hasn't been told yet. One that I wouldn't mind telling." I smiled, and he smiled back slightly, but he still seemed unconvinced.

"Heroes, make mistakes too. They hurt, and they fall. And the best heroes, never see how great they truly are. You're a hero Poseidon." I explained, hoping that maybe, he'd stop being so hard on himself.

He sighed, and blinked back more tears.

"I'm sorry for what I did to you. I should've been honest with you from the start, I should've told you everything, I just..I thought it'd be better if you didn't know. I thought maybe, keeping you in the dark, would keep you safe. I don't know if it was the right choice. But, it was the only choice it seemed."

I nodded, and smiled.

"It's okay, I understand your reasons. I'd have done the same."

"I'm also sorry, that I thought you'd turn against Hades. That was selfish..and I can't be selfish with you Damara. I know you love Hades. I shouldn't have tried to change that. You deserve him, and he deserves you."

There it was again, everyone just assumed I was in love with Hades. Of course, Poseidon's assumption was different than Ambrosia's. Poseidon could see in the deepest parts of my mind.

He knew I loved Hades before I did.

I knew it now though, spending all this time without him, was killing me.

"And, above all else," He started, as he took my hands, off his face, and held them. "I'm sorry, that I fell in love with you." He sighed.

That was something I knew, something he allowed me to see. I could see it in his mind, and with all the things he was willing to do for me. He denied it for so long. But, after that kiss, that's when he admit it to himself.

And, I suppose that's when I admit to myself that I may feel something for him too. But, there was no denying, it wasn't as strong as what I felt for Hades.

Poseidon knew that.

"I know, you fancy me. But, you'll get over it. It's just a little crush. I know that. And, I'll be okay with that. I just want you to be happy Damara, even if it's not with me." He sighed, with a shrug as he let go of my hands.

I started to say something, but he shook his head.

"You don't have to explain yourself Damara."

In reality, Zeus had requested to see Poseidon again. And, because Poseidon was opening his mind up more, I was able to see what he saw. I had to admit, it was a pretty amazing experience, I understand why he does it all the time.

Poseidon looked more tired and worn out in real life, than in my head.

Zeus smirked at him. "Wow brother, you look terrible." He chuckled.

"Not as bad as you brother." Poseidon smirked. Zeus rolled his eyes.

"Oh yeah, Poseidon I asked you here for a reason." He replied, before whistling. Then, a man came over, I didn't recognize him, not until I heard Poseidon's thoughts.

Hypnos.

Me and Poseidon, both became very worried. Zeus smirked widely at our expressions.

"He's had some very interesting things to say..."