This is the last thing
I will write
While in love with you
You were amazing and I loved
Every single thing you ever did
Or even said to me
The way you caressed the back
Of my hand with your thumb
When our fingers were intertwined
The way you smiled
When I did something silly
Or we watched a funny video
When I would get ahold of a pen
And connect your freckles
And you'd come up with something to call it
Abstract art
You'd say
We had an abstract love
I remember once on our Skype call
You told me you liked
The way I wore jeans
I told you
That I liked them on you too
Because you rarely ever wore them
I remember telling you
That you should always wear glasses
You wanted contacts so badly
Because I loved the way
It made your blue eyes
So big and inquisitive
I loved the way
You'd randomly took my hands
And we'd dance on the sidewalk
I remember the lovely days of summer
When we'd go swimming
And walk for hours
I remember the sparkling nights of summer
When we'd make a bonfire
And just sit under the stars
I remember when school started back
You promised we'd make it
Even though you were leaving me for the year
I thought so too
But wonderful things
Must end as well
And I was sad
That it was us
Before the school year
I remember on Halloween
We gave out candy
To little monsters and princesses
At your little church
The same one
Where I accepted my savior
You were there for me
When my grandfather died
You held me every time I cried
You were my very safe place
For the longest time
And I'm very sorry for what I put us through
And I loved you
From day one
Up until a few minutes ago
I was so Afraid to Say these things
I was hoping maybe you'd see
And realize I missed you too
But I realized I'm tired of this
I'm letting go
I'm done with this feeling
I'm moving to the next chapter
I'm done with rereading
I've got to finish my book
YOU ARE READING
Afraid to Say
PoesíaI was too afraid to say these things to your face, and so, I wrote them down and sent them out into the world in hopes that maybe, just maybe, they would find you before it was too late.