Tyler Imagines

Coming Out

//Having a tone of Dysphoria lately so I wrote this to make myself feel better, not to mention, my family's not to supportive on the me being trans thing so I just wanted to write this chapter, sorry, I'm breaking the small rule of using non-gender specific pronouns for this one- but hope you guys enjoy it anyway. (Also random girl name I came up with for part of it.)

My hands twitched, and tugged at my shirt, my hands went through my shorter hair, they were going to freak out, after all I've had fairly long hair since they've met me, and now it almost all done,with cute little pixie cut, ugh, I should of just got a masculine cut, maybe later, after all I haven't even come out to them yet. I took a long deep breath running my hands through my hair and resting it on the bathroom sink, maybe if I stayed here long enough the floor would eventually absorb me into it and I could live happily in the woodwork.

I sighed lifting my head up and looking myself in the eyes, today? I mean I just fully come to accept that I was trans,I tried to dance around it, Genderfulid, Nonbinary, anything, anything at all but trans. My hands shook and I felt tears gather in my eyes.

"Fuck in cry baby pull yourself together" I grumbled to myself and took a deep breath leaving the bathroom.

I check the fully body mirror one last time before heading out, maybe, just maybe if you didn't look hard enough at me I looked like a guy, I stopped looking at myself before my brain could freak out and give me another panic attack. I walked out of my apartment and headed toward the office texting Tyler that I was on my way. I took a deep breath as I got to the office door, oh god no turning back, well maybe, I could throw myself into a truck and then I don't have to deal with his.

I shook my head and walked in.

"Hey J- whoa" Ethan stammered seeing me.

"Hey Eth" I said, almost glad he didn't say my name, it had always bothered me, I never knew why, I guess now I knew.

"Nice hair cut, I thought you only said you were getting a little off?" Ethan said.

"Well... I changed my mind on the way their, my hair is way to thick for me to be dealing with it longer" I lied, though it was partly true, the thickness of my hair cause it to tangle way to easily.

"Wait till the rest of the guys see, their up stairs, common!" Ethan said pulling me up the stairs, I took a deep breath again as I tried not to fall.

"Hey guys Jenny's here!" Ethan said.

I forced a cringe down and smiled at the others who had froze to looked at me, I started to almost bless the fact I chose a pixie cut over a more masculine one, I couldn't imagine there reactions then.

"So whats everyone think?" I asked.

"You.... look-" 

"Great honey, you look great" Amy cut him off with a smile.

"Really?" I smiled at her.

"Yeah, its a little more then I thought you would ever get but it looks awesome" Amy smiled.

"Yes Jen, it looks great" Mark nodded walking up behind Amy.

I ran a hand through my hair and looked at Tyler.

"Tyler... what do you think?" I asked, I had known him longer then the rest of them, and he had always loved my long hair.

"Well..." he said walking up to me and looking it over "its different" he mumbled.

"You hate it..." my smile dropped.

"I didn't say that.... are you happy with it?" he asked.

I smiled softly and nodded "Yeah"