OUR JEEPNEY JOURNEY

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*HE'S GONE, AGAIN*

JOVIN'S POV

Hindi ko inaasahan ang naging sagot sa akin ni Minnie. Alam ko mahal nya ko but, why is she holding back? Is her love for me not enough to take risk? Natatakot ba syang masaktan? Im afraid too. Lahat naman ng tao ayaw masaktan, takot. Sino ba naman ang gustong mabugbog at masaktan dahil gusto nya lang db? Trip lang kumbaga. Natural may gusto kasing ipaglaban kaya willing masaktan.

I was d*mn hurt sa desisyon ni Minnie. Akala ko iyon na. I ready myself for my loudest shout when she said yes. Pero it was the opposite, I shout as loudest as I could saying WHYYYYY?! but only myself could hear. I felt numb. I felt the world turned back to me. But I cant do anything, its her decision. And all I can do is to respect it.

Im waiting. Yes! I will wait until the time comes that she can say yes to me and she is ready. Stupid right? After waiting and searching how many years for her, im waiting again. But its not a problem for me. I willing to wait. I will. Alam ko naman na mahal nya ako eh. Kaya I shouldn't be worried. After the incident, we remained what we are before SPECIAL FRIENDS. Im okay with that because Im happy treating her more than friends even if we're really not. Its my way of showing her that "i love her everyday" :) Its not the title that's important right? I know I'll never get tired of loving Minnie. Ngayon pang mahal nya din ako at madami na kaming pinagsamahan at pinagdaanan? Ngayon pa ba ako susuko?

But one day, I did! what happened? Is that what she call 'Im not yet ready?'

MINNIE'S POV

Namimiss ko na si Jovin. Halos isang buwan na rin syang di nagtetxt oh tumatawag oh nagpapakita man lang sa akin. Pagpumupunta ako sakanila lagi syang wala. Di ko na alam gagawin ko. Ang tanging alam ko lang unti-unti na syang nawawala sa akin. Unti- unti nga ba? o wala na talaga? I know its all my F*cking fault! Its all because of my craziness! my cowardness. It really sucks and it d*mn hurts! T_T

FLASHBACK

Sinabi ko kay Jovin na hindi pa ko ready at natuwa naman ako kasi nandyan pa rin sya at hindi parin nagbabago. Pero hindi ko alam kung bakit ayoko pang maging kami. I want to make sure. Ayokong magkamali baka mawala sya. May nanliligaw nga pala sa akin si Gelo. Masaya ako pag kasama ko sya at hindi rin nagtagal sinagot ko sya. Im crazy right? Yeah i know. Sinabi ko kay Jovin di pa ko ready yet nagkabf ako. Hindi ko rin alam ang pumasok sa kokote ko. Sinubukan ko lang naman eh. I want to know kung kaya ko na bang makipagrelasyon ulit. I felt sorry for Gelo for using him. Sana maintindihan niya ako at ni Jovin.

Stupid Reason! Sinong makakaintindi sakin, but honestly, di ko talaga alam ang kaluluwang sumapi sakin dahil sa mga ginagawa ko.

Nagpangabot si Gelo at Jovin sa bahay.

"J-Jovin?"-ako

"Hindi, ako si Minnie! Di mo ko kilala?

Tsk nagulat ka pa eh araw-araw naman akong nandito" -Jovin

"Sipain kita dyan eh. Ahm G-Gelo si J-Jovin bestfriend ko... J-Jovin si G-Gelo" -ako

"Pare, nice to meet you ikaw ba yung pinsan ni Minnie? ^^." - Jovin

"Ahh hindi pare boyfriend nya ko. Nice to meet you too pare!" -Gelo

Kinabahan na ako ng makita ko yung seryosong mukha ni Jovin. Dun ko narealize na mali. Pero di ko na kayang umalis dito sa pinasukan kong relasyon. Tanga ako alam ko pero masama bang maging sigurado? Tsk Mali nga lang ang paraan :(

Umalis na si Gelo at nag-usap kami ni Jovin.

"Minnie? B-Bakit?"

"J-Jovin, s-sorry. T.T "