Hi Miss I.A,
Another year, passed, and a lot of things happened... What i mean with "a lot"?
Last December, my grandfather died, during the first 3 months after he died... I didn't cry. a huge part of me was relieved, and i felt guilty for it. I knew a huge secret of my family, a reason why i despise being born in it, aside from them being control freaks, and all of the secrets are connected to my grandfather... last march, we went to see my dad, and met his siblings and relatives... I feigned my sleep and heard the talks of the adults... Since then it wasn't just despising them... It became hatred.
My grandfather is a good person, to us children, and to the public... but i knew what he was like to his children and to my mom. I knew how he can be cruel sometimes... but i have a memory of him wherein, he taught me about carpentry, building houses (bahay kubos to be exact) and a lot of things about history, stories of war and many other things, looking back, those were good memories. It was when i met you that i started to discover the dark part of him.
But don't get me wrong... you became my light, you were my saving grace. I am thankful that i met you, this is the only time of the year that i am able to be who i am, tell what was inside my heart and smile while writing, it's all because i wrote this letters that i know won't even be sent to you.
Also, i had a crush on someone back when i was a freshman... but i realized now, it is just a feeling for a sister. It was funny when i think about it, I wait for her every afternoon after class,carry her bag when going home and tell her stories she'd never read before, i even share my things to her, i was teased that i liked her, but i managed to deal with it calmly, it's not the same with you when i was teased that i blush and gets restless each time.
And then, there's this Senior girl that i am close to, she was bright, for some reason she teases me a lot, i always visit them in their classroom and have lunch together... i admit, i did... yeah, fell in love, but, let me tell you, that was my second heartbreak. She graduated and only sees me as a little brother, when I thought deeper of it, I.A i actually saw you in her.
Until now, the fact that i'm still writing to you, i guess i haven't gotten over you.
Anyway, to me many things happened in just a year, and i'm sure, your year also passed with many things. I'm hoping that it was a good one. And again, I am wishing you all the best, good health, to reach your dreams and happiness...
Please SMILE always.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
theboywhoadmiresyou,
S.G
