The Fallen

*Chapter Six*

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Dusk was starting to blanket the earth. The colors mixed between dark blues and grays. I couldn't even see the sun anymore. I began walking unsure of where I was going, and just hoping to keep the chill from sinking into my bones. A few of the stray cats and dogs which I had seen before, began following behind me. Most likely hoping that I would drop a piece of food for them, and I would've if only I had some.

I continued walking along, passing houses which ran along both sides of the street. I could see a dim glow of light escaping from a few of the boarded up windows, but that was still only a very few. I kept walking. There were streets now that were vearing off into different directions. Where was I supposed to go? There were a million possibilities and I didn't have an inkling of a clue of where I wanted to go.

I pushed myself down and sat on the side of the curb. Slowly pulling up my knees up into my chest and rested my head on top of them. Taking deep breaths to calm the anxiety I could feel tendraling it's way throughout my body. I needed to calm myself, there was no way I was going to be able to think like this. I took a few more deep breaths. I needed to try and think really try and recall who I was before I forgot. I couldn't do anything like this. I would just continue meandering at this rate. I closed my eyes, and drew in a few more shaky breaths. I began probing my brain. There had to be something that I could remember.

Slowly I played through today's events retracing all of my steps. As soon as I got to waking up in the woods disoriented I could go back no further. It was as if there is an almost physical wall blocking me from accessing any of my other memories. Frustrated I try to mentally break this wall, pushing, willing myself to break this invisible barrier. All I can get is snipets of images. A pair of piercing blue eyes filled with so much love and wonder. The feeling of something soft and feathery. And the sound of a flowing river encasing me in words. I groaned. Retracting myself from the mental wall and bringing myself back to reality. All of my effort and almost nothing to show for it, except mental exhaustion. I pulled myself into a tighter ball. I felt a few drops of something cold and wet hit the top of my head. I looked up wondering what it could be. A few more drops hit my face and slowly fell down, like tears running off of my face. The drops began to increase the speed at which they fell.

Rain. This is rain. I though to myself. I slowly opened my mouth. A few small drops of rain fell into my mouth. I amazed at how it tasted of nothing and everything all at the same time. I slowly lowered my head, feeling as though I wasn't as overwhelmed anymore. Though I realized that I was no longer dry. Standing up suddenly, I looked around for a moment before I found what appeared to be a convenience store connected with an overhang to a Barber Shop, whatever that was. The windows to both of these places appeared all broken in and boarded up. I began running trying to escape the rain quickly. I exhaled when I reached the small alley in which the overhang so conveniently covered. Although it was dark, it seemed safe enough. I could see that there were a few empty trash cans, many of them overturned and laying sadly and dejectedly on the ground. I took a seat between two trash cans trying to block some of the wind that was making its way through the small alleyway. I curled myself back into a ball. Feeling all the exhaustion of the day come crashing down on me. I gently took off the scarf from around my neck and made a small pillow with it, and layed it across my knees. Slowly, I brought, my head down, and almost instantley I felt sleep take me.

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I was awakened suddenly by sharp and bitter noises. The noises quickly made me attentive. I keenly listened to the sounds that filled the air and attacked and intruded my ears, making me want to cover them and block the awful sounds from being heard. I resisted, though, and only listened closer. It almost sounded as if metal was hitting metal, almost smashing and grinding together. I felt chills run through me, what a nasty sound. There was more though, I could hear yelling and cheers. Whooping out of unknown mouths in great bellows. The sound deep and gutteral. It almost sounded as if the noises were getting closer. I could feel fear coursing through my blood, making my heart hammer in my chest. For a second I wondered if they got close enough, would they be able to hear my pounding heart? I knew that I should probably move, try to get somewhere far away from these people, but the fear kept me glued to where I was.