Robyn: I couldn't believe Lovely, she honestly jus-. I don't know what she was thinking. The woman of my dreams the women I thought I knew, isn't there! She wouldn't settle! Don't she know I'm hers all she has to do is let me be? If she said jump I would've said how high, shit I still would. She makes me push but she said she made him push too. I guess that's just what she does, I guess that's how she makes sure people don't become what others want if them. It's just I want her all to myself, she likes power. She's the only African-American woman in her field demolishing everyone, not just women but everyone! It's crazy cause after I walked away I said i couldn't love her, but it's a lie. And if I were to say I would never need her I would still be lying. But it would all be to keep her from breaking my heart. An even though her emotion wouldn't let her feel where I was coming from, I know she was lying. I could see it in her eyes. I told myself not to fall for her don't give my heart to her, but I did it anyway. Can't let her think i want her to let her career not have her all for me, I just want to hold her just want her to believe in me. I thought she was ready but now I see. What if her love shoots me and i bleed out just for her, she just a heart melter won't let you melt mine. cause I'll be so heartbroken stalking her and her kids ah Nah. Damn it, why did I let her do this to me? I sound like a SoundCloud love song. I just wish I was there first, I wish she saw me and fell instantly in love!
