Lovely: I know I was bold as fuck for doing that. Telling my Husband and my Mistress that I love them both. It's crazy for me not to think they wouldn't walk away but damn! I CANT HELP WHO I LOVE! Robyn knew what she was getting herself into and I kinda feel like that kiss was a setup. Zeus can't be mad, cause at the time he didn't love me anymore, we were on a path to divorce. I just wish everything could be so simple. Sometimes I do wish I met Robin first. I wish that when I walked down that aisle it was with her. Looking at her in her eyes as she cried because she know she had a good thing. I wish we didn't have stolen moments and kept secret. But then sometimes I don't regret marrying Zeus, I feel it made me stronger. I mean he's wonderful caring at times thoughtful and he listens like sometimes I couldn't ask for more! He gave me two beautiful uniquely talented kids. But then it's like how can I be selfish and want both of them to myself, how could I not let them get everything they want and deserve. I kinda feel like I'm rambling, searching for my answer or even a great lie to tell myself. I feel like I know what I want to happen well, do I?
