Hakyeon happily walked along the water of the ocean barefooted with his shoes in his hand and a small bag on his back. Hakyeon looked beyond the ocean and if you look directly at his eyes you can see it glistening with happiness and freedom and if you blink you would miss his small smile on his lips. Hakyeon breath in the ocean breeze and let out a happy sigh.
He sat down at the beachy sand and took out a book from his backpack…..his journal. Inside his journal consists of 4 years of written memories whether it’s filled with happiness or grief.
During his 5 day stay so far in the island, he had done nothing but the things he could never do. To be able to freely walk the streets without worrying who may noticed him. He had the freedom to freely roam the town. He also not brought happiness to himself but to those around him, especially with the halmeoni whom he had a nice talk with ever since his arrival. 5 days came by in a blur but these 5 days he had was filled with memories of smiles and laughters.
Looking ahead once more at the ocean blue water, orange hue skies, and nice morning breeze; he knew what to write.
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“Oh, Yeonnie, you called?” Leeteuk asked.
Hakyeon just hummed in response and continued looking out of the window to the scenery of the blue ocean. He's been gone for 4 days already...he finally know what to do.
“Did you think it over?”
Hakyeon hummed in agreement, “Hyung, I finally know what I'm going to do.”
“Whatever your decision is, I'll support you, you know that.”
“I know and thank you hyung. I know you talked to my members 3 days ago, Ryeowook hyung texted me.”
“I did, but I didn't exposed your location. I'm sure Wookie told you how much your members missed you and how worried they were when they asked me questions.”
“I know, but…..”
"You needed this getaway, I understand Yeonnie, I rreally do. I wish every leader wouldn't go through so much hardship alone."
"Hyung, do you really think I'll become a leader that a leader should really be if I return as N?"
"Of course. You've fought through 4 years and you'd stayed very strong. Right now you just needing a break, just because you took a break from the pain of being leader, it doesn't mean that you're weak. You just needed the healing like any other leader should."
It was silence for awhile. Leeteuk could hear Hakyeon sighing through the phone.
"So, what's your decision? Do you want to return to being the leader and member N of VIXX or would you rather continue to be who are right now as Cha Hakyeon?"
Hakyeon looked at the ocean once again with eyes filled with glistening tears but within that teary eyes is a glint.
"My decision? My desicion is to continue as -"
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Thinking about his talk with Leeteuk the night before, he wonders if his decision was the right one; not only for himself but for his members also. His thoughts about the talk was broken by 2 twins shouting at his direction. Looking up, he smiled and slowly put away what he was writing and walked towards the two children.
"Oppa, halmeoni is calling that breakfast is ready." One of the twins said.
Hakyeon smiled and nodded, taking hold of the two twins hand heading to the halmeoni that he befriended so easily and became his grandmother also throughout his stay in the island. She had helped him a lot throughout his stay and gave him that sense of freedom that he never gotten from the city. A freedom to freely roam around without worrying about who may noticed him as an idol. He not only feel happy but he made others happy too.
"Yeon-ah, what did I say about going out to the beach early in the morning?" Halmeoni immediately scolded Hakyeon upon arrival at the door.
Hakyeon just laughed, "To not go out every morning or else I'll get a cold."
"But you did, didn't you?"
"Halmeoni, how many times must we go through this? I'm okay, isn't that right Jun, Eunhye?" Hakyeon asked the two twins.
The twins shouted yes excitingly and ran towards the table already prepared with food.
"You're as stubborn as my -"
"As your son. I know halmeoni." Hakyeon chuckled and kissed her cheek, "And morning to you too."
Halmeoni just shook her head and patted Hakyeon's back. All four sat around the table happily eating and chatting away about what they would do throughout the day. The twins were happily chatting away about going to the stationery to buy stickers and pencils.
"Oh, halmeoni, do you know where the post office is?" Hakyeon asked suddenly.
"Post office? It next to the stionery store which is just uphill and you turn right when you see....oh wait, the twins are heading there."
"We can take you, hyung! We're going to the stionery after breakfast." Jun answered.
Hakyeon nodded and smiled at the two children. After happily eating and chatting away, the three immediately headed to the post office and stationery. The children were the one who was mostly happy about heading up to the store, already thinking about what to buy.
"Oppa, why you going to the post office for?" Eunhye asked out of curiousity.
"Pabo-yah, hyung is going there to send a letter, right hyung?" Jun said.
"That's right." Hakyeon quietly said as he looked down at the letters that he was holding.
"I guess this is it, huh."
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A/N:
I'm back and this story has about 2 chapters left to go! Yes, it's almost time to say goodbye to this story. This chapter is short because it's just a long time update of being gone for about 2 months! I apologize about that.
I've been busy, also been lazy, and I've been traveling too. The month of February was my planning month about heading up north for a concert...so I wasn't able to update at all during those days but I am back! As always, thank you for supporting this story and for giving me your feedback about your thoughts so far.
Like I've said many of times, positive or negative feedback is always welcome! Once again, thank you so much for reading this story!
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FanfictionCha Hakyeon, also known as VIXX Leader N to the rest of the world, came crumbling down. The worries and frustrations has finally been released but is his final decision right for him but most importantly for his members? Can he continue to be the l...
