SNOW WHITE ➸ BELLAMY BLAKE {discontinued}

8 | REVENGE |

♥just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight.♥

I would always do what people say to me. The most of the time I would try to smile because I would look happy and not sad or angry because I'm in a cell. I would listen to people and tell them if they are wrong or right. Well that only happened with Octavia and my dad because I had no one else. But when we were send down to earth I had.

I met my brother. And that's the best thing that ever happened to me. I met Clarke Griffin. I still don't really know if I like her but it's starting to become less awkward when we talk. I think that she didn't really like me but that's changing. I met Finn Collins. The boy who got me out of the drop ship when we landed. If he didn't do that then maybe I would still be in the drop ship hiding away in a corner. I met Jasper and Monty. The power couple. There is nothing to say about them only that they are awesome.

And then I met Bellamy Blake. The one who told me to open up. Who pretended to care for me. And I believed him. I really thought that he cared for me like he said he did. I really thought that there was a possibility that we were going to be friends. That we were friends. But when I gave him a choice of losing me or keeping me as a friend he just chose to loose me. And it broke my heart.

I changed. I changed because I didn't want do be the shy girl anymore. I wanted to prove him that he made the wrong choice and that he shouldn't have done that. That he was the one that made me change into what I've become now. But I'm starting to regret it. I don't like myself like this. I liked the shy Nathalie. The one who just listens and never really speaks. And I miss him. Bellamy hasn't spoken to me all day.

When I told Charlotte to run she did. A lot happened after that but I just stayed in my tent realising that I don't really want to hurt her. That I didn't want to hurt her. Because she is not here anymore. She jumped off a cliff because she didn't want to hurt people anymore. And when that all happened and the ones who were trying to keep her save and who were trying to hunt her down came back to camp the only thing I heard is that that was someone missing. They banished Murphy.

I don't really know if that's a good thing or not. He's going to die out there and everyone knows that. But if you think about all the trouble he created in this camp maybe it is better that he's gone.

I've stayed in my tent the whole time. No one came to talk to me. I heard a few people say that I'm going crazy. That I'm just a girl that they should lock away. Or banish just like they did with Murphy. And all of that is making me regret what I've become. And even though I promised myself I wouldn't change back I's still trying to. But it's difficult with everything and everyone around me. All the rumors and ugly words people say about me. That's why I'm no longer in my tent but at the lake. The same one where Octavia was bitten by a snake.

I'm thinking about everything that happened just a few hours ago. It's still dark. I'm changing back into the shy Nathalie. It's what I want. But I'm having difficulties with the Bellamy problem. It's been a day without talking to him. And even though I didn't want it I'm starting to regret telling him that he lost me. He thinks that he lost me but I'm not really happy with that. At first I didn't like the Blake boy. But that just changed.