Let Me Out

Chapter Eight

(Picture of Wynter's mom in the side)

WARNING: There is a sex scene, so if you don't like sex scenes you can skip over it or something^_^

"Honey, are you okay?!" Pam called from the other side of the bathroom door.

"Yeah." I coughed, just as I started to puke my guts out again.

"You don't sound okay."

"I know."

I took a deep breath and gargled mouth wash in my mouth, trying to get the taste out. I opened the door and walked out to Pam. My hands were shaking, my whole body was sweating. I wasn't sick though, didn't have a fever or food poisoning or something. I was going through withdraw, I needed alchocol. I neeeded drugs. I felt myself craving it a little bit more each day I went without it. It would be so easy to give in.... But I knew I couldn't do that. I couldn't throw everything I had worked for away like that.... but oh how I wished I could.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, clentching my fists and grinding my teeth.

"I'll be right back, hon." Pam said. She ran downstairs without giving me time to answer.

I knew what she was going to do though. She was going to hide the wine she had in the kitchen. Since I had started getting a lot better, we thought it was safe for her to be able to buy wine. She was having some of her friends over tomorrow night, so she had bought some wine.

Pam came back upstairs and tried to smile at me.

"Thanks." I whispered.

"For what?"

"Hiding the wine."

"No problem, honey. Why don't we go downstairs and sit on the couch, watch some TV? I'll make us some coffee."

"Um actually, I think I'm gonna go on a walk. I need some fresh air."

"Okay, hon. Bye."

"Bye." I mumbled as I ran down the stairs and out the door.

I took a few deep breaths and started walking. I didn't know where I was going, I just knew I needed to calm down. No matter how badly I wanted the cocaine, the weed, the alcohol, I knew I couldn't give in like that. If I did, Pam would probably send me to some rehab. This should be the worst part of staying sober and drug free, right? I walked past Matts house and up the street a bit, to see that it looked like someone was having a party. Just my luck. I saw some people outside, some drinking and some laying in the grass, staring at the sky. They were so lucky. Drinking without a care in the world. I neeed drugs, I needed alchohol, more than I needed anything else in the world. Pam didn't have to know about this though, did she? She wouldn't find out anyway. The only way she'd find out is if I told her, which I obviously wouldn't do.

I sighed and walked up to the door, and started knocking as hard as I could untill someone finally opened the door.

"Do I know you?"

"Dunno. You gonna let me in?"

"What school do you go too?"

"Spotswood High School."

"Oh I go there! I'm Jared."

"Wynter. You know, it's kinda cold out here."

"Oh yeah, yeah sorry. Come on in."

"Thanks." I mumbled as I walked past Jared and looked around.

There was a huge table full of food, alcholic drinks, and even drugs. Just what I wanted.