A Dangerous Desire- Elijah x OC

Friday Nite Bites

Victoria POV:

I put back on my Vervain bracelet playing along with the storyline that Stefan "compelled" me to always wear it. But it didn't really matter as I was drinking it daily anyway. I had to hand it to Damon the plan actually worked I was officially "in" Elena's inner circle, at Stefan's urging but still it would make things a lot easier.

Tonight Tanner would die unless I intervened, I had already intervened enough to spare Caroline from being treated like a blow-up sex doll full of blood so I knew it was possible to change things I just hadn't quite worked out how to do it this time. If I did something to Tanner to make him miss the game, mess with his car or slip him sleeping pills, then Damon might end up killing someone else in his place like when I didn't show up at the party at the falls that first night.

I don't have too much time to brainstorm on it and I'm starting to panic but I need to get to school. I text Jeremy on the way asking if he wants to just chill before homeroom. I'm surprised when he texts back yea sure.

I grabbed something from the vending machine for breakfast, not very healthy I know but I didn't have time to grab anything more substantial before leaving the house.

"You know you should be careful, I hear food is a drug," Jeremy says as my mounds bar drops.

"Please, there's coconut and almonds, if anything this is me eating healthy." I joke back. "So what made you finally agree to hang out with me today?"

He stuck his hands in his pockets and looked down at his feet uncomfortably,

"Yeah sorry, just been busy."

"Okayy," I say not really buying his excuse.

"Actually that's not it, when you broke up with Tyler... did you even think about giving us a shot?" 

Wow, that was bold of him, It kinda makes me respect him a bit more but it also puts me in a SUUUUUPPER awkward position.

"Uhh, honestly? No. I am trying to think of myself, as selfish as that sounds, keeping clean, being a better sister, and trying to catch up on school. I mean it's pathetic I woke up from my drug stupor to realize I am older than Matty but a grade behind him, do you know how much of a loser that makes me feel like? I like you Jeremy and I don't regret any time we've spent together but I just really need to focus on myself right now and I'm not going to apologize for that. If you don't like the new me... if you were only with me before for drugs or sex, that person is gone. And she's going to stay gone as long as I have a say."

I start to walk away but he stops me and kisses me, catching me off guard.

He pulls back and steps away from me but still standing close, "just so you know, it wasn't just the drugs or the sex, both of which I admit I really like but I like you more. And I want you to keep putting yourself first I just miss the old you, as selfish as that sounds, I think I could have really fallen for her, what the hell is wrong with me that I don't feel that for you now that you're clean?"

"Nothing, nothing is wrong with you Jeremy. You're lost right now, and maybe that's just where you need to stay for a little bit longer, it's like hanging out with someone when you're hungover, you can really care about that person but still want them just out of your face... wait does that make any sense? Whatever, what I'm trying to say was that I think high and lost me could have really fallen for you too, I think she did actually, and maybe that's even what got me to care again. So thank you and I am sorry if you feel like I've left you behind," I say trying to explain the change in Vicki/myself as best as I can.

"No I get what you're saying, we're in two different places, and unfortunately they don't lend themselves to us being together. Thanks for saying you were falling for me too. It means more than you know. Maybe when I'm in a different place or a bit more over you we could be close again."