A Dangerous Desire- Elijah x OC

A look back/A look forward

Vee POV:

After everyone left I decided to go for a walk, I needed to clear my head as much as that was even possible.

I'd been thinking about my family a lot lately, I suppose that's only natural when you're having a child of your own.

Finding myself in this world was initially fun, I won't lie. It was fun walking around knowing I knew more than everyone around me, it made me feel stronger... more confident.

I think back to when I kicked Damon off that roof and smile a little to myself. Man, I wish someone had gotten that on tape.

I remember going with Lexi and Lee to first, buy c4, which was one of the most bizarre shopping trips of my life, and then to rescue Enzo. Having zero supernatural abilities I'm pretty sure that's as close as I'll ever come to feeling like a superhero.

It was after that I started to really allow myself to have connections to these people and not just see them as characters. But at the same time, all my grief and longing for my old life slowly started to trickle into the forefront of my mind.

Missing someone intensely is heavy emotion to carry around, and for me, that was multiplied by everyone from my old life. If I hadn't had made some genuine friendships with people here I think the weight of those emotions would have drowned me.

But now I was starting to lose those I love in this world as well, first Elijah and now Matt. It was too much. It felt like I had stumbled into quicksand and I was slowly being sucked down but as much as I wanted to do something about it I was afraid to move.

I wished more than anything I was able to call my mom, I missed her so damn much. I can't tell you how many times I've picked up the phone to call her. Once I actually let the call go through but all I got was "we're sorry this number is not in service"

Explaining the two timelines to Matt today I realized something, he might be able to get Vick back, but my family never interacted with the supernatural, if they ever did recognize me again was I really going to bring this world and all it's dangers to them? The ramifications of doing so were so long and intense for once I was glad to have 6 more years to figure it out. Actually now that I think about it, it was closer to 5 and 1/2 more years. Shit, thinking back to that laundry list of doomsday scenarios I was responsible for stopping suddenly 5 1/2 more years didn't feel like an eternity, honestly, it felt way too fucking short.

And through all of this, I have to be a mom too. 'Have to' is the wrong way to say it, I want this baby, I love him so much already but man I wish he was all I had to focus on.

I looked up and realized I had walked all the way to the quarry. The beautiful expansive view of nature was helping to calm me down. I walked over to the boulder Elijah and I once sat on.

I blush thinking about the time I asked him to kiss me, I mean we had practically just met, what was I thinking?

No, it was Elijah and I knew, even as a stranger he made me feel safe, I knew he was special beyond being an original he was special because it didn't feel like it did with everyone else. Like oh hey I know you from tv, no this was deeper, it was like I really had known him.

He let me feel like I was home.

I miss that, I miss him but I think the person I really miss the most is myself.

I used to be so forward, brave... happy, even when I was sad I think I was happier then what I feel now. If only I could have seen then how manageable even my biggest problems were.

It's strange being jealous of a past version of yourself.

I look down to my baby bump and cradle my little guy with both hands,

"Hey you, sorry still thinking of names but I promise it won't be something crazy like Pilot Inspector. I can't wait to meet you," I stroke across my expanding belly and look off onto the water, "I don't imagine you feel the same... I'm admittedly kind of a mess right now." I close my eyes and make a promise, "I'm gonna try and get it together before you get here tho, I promise."

Even if I don't feel like it right now, I know I have to figure a way through this, I want to be someone my son is proud of. Hell, I want to feel proud of me again too.

Elijah POV:

My mouth feels like its full of sand, my throat is so dry the craving for not just blood but even just a cup of water is maddening. I can feel my muscles starting to digest themselves, it feels like I'm being eaten from the inside out and it's excruciating.

My only reprieve is turning my mind to Lavender.

Time moves so slow in this state I'm not sure how long it's really been, did she already have the child? Was it an easy delivery, are they both healthy and safe?

Now my worries are encroaching on the only safe place left in my body, the place I keep her in my mind.

I try to push them back and think of a happier time, I remember our first dance,

my hand on the small of her back...

her early little pouch where our son was just beginning to grow pressed up against me...

the smell of her hair...

I can feel myself calming down slightly, but I'm scared, I feel madness approaching and I don't know how much longer I can stave it off.

Klaus POV:

I had done it, I finally released my wolf side, and I had never felt so damn free!

*bang*

what was that?

*bang**bang*

I feel something pierce my skin and soon the four legs I have beneath me collapse. My vision is starting to dim, what the hell is happening?

I can see boots walking towards me and then someone kneels down closer allowing me to see them.

My mother, I notice something in her hand...

My mother has shot me?

"Sorry darling but you weren't supposed to break the curse, you can't be both a vampire and a werewolf, nature and I won't' allow it."

I'm trying to open my jaw so I can rip her throat out with what little energy I have left but I just can't, it's like she's paralyzed me, it must have been a tranquilizer she shot me with.

But what would have been strong enough to put me down even in wolf form?

"Please ladies, preform the spell before my son has the chance to recover,"

What the hell is she doing to me?!!!!!

After they have finished all their ridiculous chanting and dancing about my mother approaches me again, I'm finally starting to feel my strength return to me, I can even move my paws slightly.

Yes, come on, just a little closer you witch!

But she stops a few feet from me, "You wanted to be a wolf so bad, you should be careful what you wish for, because now that is all you will ever be," she says ominously.

What the hell does that mean?