The Road That Lies Before

16

The courage must have been a spur of the moment,
For I found myself suffocating at the undoing of our bond,
Letting go of all our dreams he went,
To what seemed,infinity and beyond.

I'd been walking a narrow line between what's real and what's not.
What I do believe in is what I have made myself believe.
And I chose over and over again to believe that, by this love have I been caught.
If then have I no strength in me to leave.

You could wonder if to myself have I been lying,
That the strength to leave had I in my will.
Maybe deep inside I had known, with this choice would I be dying,
Yet in not taking my leave did I put in all my will.

Our Bye's were never meant to bid farewell,
It was an oath that stood for our awaited sweet by and by.
I can't help but not let it linger a spell,
That we chanted over and over but to never dwell by.

I will choose to stay even when you told me you love me no more,
Even when I am told, as a lover I no longer hold a place.
I can't believe in falling out of love even though these words bore,
Deep trenches in my heart, leaving me lost in a maze.

As pays pass heaping up hurt, I scream I will walk the distance;
I tell him I would run run away far enough to not hurt anymore.
Yet not a day will pass till I let down my stance.
It was a late realisation, that falling out of love was indeed not a leap through the door.

Sometimes when it hurt a lot to stay,
Is when I would decide for awhile to stay away.
Yet to think those days might be when he would need me most to stay,
Haunts me asking if, for my choice will I have to pay.

So I kept walking on the coal,
Hoping I would someday, reach my goal.