Goodbye Internet.

I Can't Stand This!

((Without you I feel broke like I'm half of a whole, without you I got no hand to hold. Without you I feel torn like a sail in a storm. Without you, I'm just a sad song.))

Phil's POV
It's been a month after Dan's death. I go into his room. It's late at night so I flop onto his bed. I fall asleep hugging his pillow trying to get any scent of him back.

^^Time Skip To Next Day^^

I wake up and sluggishly walk into the kitchen. I cry at how beautiful everything was when I had Dan. Life isn't the same without Dan. I turn on my laptop and watch every single one of Dan's videos from start to finish. I then watch all the PINOF's trying not to cry. I know Dan said not to dwell on him but I couldn't help it. He means everything but now he's gone. I go on to Tumblr and have a look at some phanart. I find one I like it was extremely cute. It was so true.

I cried as I kept watching every video that came up. I couldn't help but read some phanfics as well. It made me feel a little happier that we will have a legacy on the internet. But then I came to a realisation. Without Dan, I wouldn't be here sitting in an apartment on Tumblr. I'd be in heaven. I start crying loudly. I can't stand my life without Dan. It's not right. I eventually decide to give in. I write a letter to whoever finds my dead body.

Dear whoever reads this,
I'm ending my life today to be with my true love. It's been a month since he passed and I can't take it any longer. Our apartment isn't as happy. Our belongings aren't as bright. Ever since he died, I've been crying while hugging anything with his scent on it. I can't stand it any longer. Goodbye.
The writer
Phillip Michael Lester.

I run and grab all the pills I can find. I shove them all into my mouth. This is it. I cry and cry as the pain in my body is increasing incredibly fast. All I see is darkness. This really is Goodbye Internet.