Perfectly Flawed

Swallowing my Pride

Swallowing my Pride

Swallowing my pride

Swallowing the pain

Swaalowing the hurt

I'm sick of pretending I'm okay

I'm sick of not knowing what to say

Everything seems to be so difficult

Everything seems to be so hard

Why the hell must I feel this way?

Why the hell must I always fail

Walking around like a zombie

Just wanting someone to care

Just wanting someone to be there

My head seems to be so clouded these days

My heart drenched with pain

My whole body aches

From the emotions I can't even name

I feel so stuck and ashamed

I keep everything inside

Hide my soul, myself behind fakeness

Behind masks I've perfected

So I can never let anyone in

Masks that no matter how much I want them to come off

They're stuck

Mostly because I'm afraid behind the masks

I won't know who I am anymore

That I am nothing

So that's why I continue to hide

Continue to mask the pain inside

My body is getting weaker

And sometimes I wish I could give in

But I just continue to mask and grow

Weaker as the days pass